My thought

This morning, I was thinking about the dream. The dream was just so familiar, like I was in the dream many years ago. I can't recall where was that. I thought very hard...very hard...and hard... Aha! Gotcha! It was my primary school's toilet. I can't remember how the toilet looks like, but in the dream, I saw the toilet clearly, just like I was there. And I recall back the old times.

Fast and slow, this is what I think about how the time passes by. It is very fast. Just a blink of eye, I'm 15. Six months later, i'm going to form four. Two years later, I'm in the college. Seven years later, I'm working. And maybe ten years later, I'm married.

I still can remember clearly how my first day in the Uk Dih school, that was my primary school. My mum held my hand and walked into my classroom. She was so calm, because this was her fifth time taking her children go to the school, or maybe she was NUMB, didn't have any feeling for that. She needed to find a place for me. Well, she didn't take it seriously.

8 years later, now, I'm fifteen. Sometimes I just can't accept the fastness and the changes of me, myself. I prefer the old times actually. Indeed. I don't like NOW, I mean the fifteen's life. You know, it's kinda tired actually. Everyday is doing the same thing, the right thing, the wrong thing... Yea, human will never satisfy although they are perfectly designed and created, they want something beyond the perfect.. Well, I'm human.

I'm numb. I don't feel pain or sad anymore. It's kinda long time ago since the last time I cried. Do you know why? Maybe I've been through too much, and I need something beyond that I could contain.

I've thought if is there any possible that actually the whole world is acting? I mean they are making up my life. Yea, I know it's weird but I do always think like that.