知之为知之，不知为不止，是知也。

今天，本姑娘要谈一谈现今青少年的疯狂。

说到青少年，现在谈恋爱的普遍到好像吃干捞面一样。

你一定在想和干捞面有什么关系？

那不是重点。

谈恋爱其实没有问题，人总会有感情嘛。。

问题却变到很大，当青少年谈恋爱的目的非凡。

我不知道从那里听到说，有一对情侣（中学生）在我的学校的某一个课室做哪一个东西（understood) ，不小心让 jaga 听到。==

他们真的好无聊也，那时是下午班上课的时候，你可以想象课室外有很多学生走动和吵闹声，甚至还有我学校那么泄气的钟声来当伴乐。可能远方的课室还传来- 起立，行礼，老师午安的声音。

还有，听说有一对情侣随着学校学会的trip去云顶，他们住在同一间房。

本来，单纯的我以为他们也许只是谈心事。

事实却没那么简单。

有一位同学，好像不小心看到那男同学去买 french cap。（自己google)

夜深的时候，还有人去敲他们的房间，男同学只露出他的头，不愿意开门给他们。

当然，这两则故事有待证实。

最近，刚考完试，听到有一些学生作弊。

我在考试期间，牺牲了下午和晚上的睡眠，牺牲了上网的时间，牺牲了父母的金钱买了一大堆作业。而这些作弊的同学，却可以那么轻松的考试。重点是，他们的成绩和我差不多一样。

每个人都必须要为自己的过犯负责任。没有付出心血的考试，你理所当然的要硬着头皮拿那不好的成绩。

有同学在考Bio的时候，直接拿了bio书出来看。

有同学在考Moral的时候，直接拿了Nilai list出来抄。

考试带手机来学校，和朋友sms讨论答案。

而这些都是来自SCIENCE班。

我不明白，不明白为什么他们可以做弊做得那么理所当然。而我却读bio读到抓头发，读physics读到要崩溃了，背nilai背到差点要写facebook 的 email 给najib。

其实，也都已经十六岁了。你也许需要的是到火堆里烧一烧，让自己“成熟”一些，或是你需要的是一面墙壁，让自己面壁思过，必要时去撞墙。==

越说越气，不说了。

加油，同学们！

枯叶伤感地、写意地随风飘，深深地意表着时间的流逝。

我努力的张开双手拥抱未来，却不知道何时的努力变得好吃力。

不停地怀念过去的悠闲，却不知情未来的哪一刻又是在怀念曾经失去的当下。到头来，什么都没得到，不停地错过。

昨天，前ntv7主播刘子贤到我的学校和我们谈人生。他的重点不多，因为时间不足。

他曾经患癌在死亡的边缘徘徊着，后来成功逃出魔掌。以不同的角度看待人生的他，教我们如何活得有意义------活在当下。

我不知道为什么在这年头，我变得很喜欢说人生大道理，也许在不同的人生阶段，会有不一样的感慨吧。。。

最近，都在忙着应付考试。

上课、听课、下课、补习、功课、熬夜应付考试。

这样的生活，可能我还不了解其中的那踏实的乐趣。

不过，我将会怀念这一切。

这是不知道在那一位大学生的blog所了解到的东西。

最后跟你们分享好笑的事情。

我二姐知道我一直都有上文学课，所以想了解一些中国文学的东西。

我告诉她什么是唐诗宋词元曲，过后我又问她又没有听过唐诗三百首吗？

她告诉我：“噢，唐诗三百首这我知道，唐伯虎写的吗。。” ==

Sneeeeeeeeeeze

I'm ill.

Sore throat, then fever, then ha qiu, then cough.

During the exam today, I had fever. I dread sitting the exam especially bm paper. Uh, peningnya.

Btw, good news.

My cousin is pregnant!!!!!! 6 weeks plus only.

I can't believe I'm gonna become Auntie already leh.

Waiting for the arrival of the baby... =>

Next Tuesday got exam again.

Chemistry - Electrochemistry

Biology - Nutrition

Pm - one bidang

English - dunno

Addmaths - Loci and Statistics

And I have only one week time to study. ==

Sigh, bye bye lo.

这篇是被激而写的 =,=

1) 如果有一天，你的男友在外头胡搞，你选择：

A）赏他一巴掌后，头也不会地离开他。

B）想办法侮辱那个狐狸精。

C）继续和他在一起，再想办法伤害他。

D）原谅他，以睁一只眼和闭一只眼的方式来包容他接下来的同样错误。

以上这情况，当然不是发生在我的身上。没错！就是发生在之前我不断提起的Faker和那不断在部落格暗讽我的女生。很多人不知道此事，在发生的当天我就已经向那女孩道歉，原因是我臭骂了她的男友。毕竟，我对他说了很多伤人的话。

道歉是应该的。

可惜，好像那女孩不接受。她说她不需要人家的话来经营属于她和他的爱情。

回归以上的那道问题，若是你，你选择什么？很明显的，她选择了D。

对于她的这选择，我不断的思考，她对他的爱，到底离题了没？这还是爱情吗？

最后，我想通了，这的确是出自于她的爱，只不过，她要的是轰轰烈烈地谈一场恋爱而并不是在道德观念上是否成立的爱情。

甚至，纯粹得他只是她的男朋友，和她SMS到达三百封的男朋友，和她去看Karate Kid的男朋友。不在乎他是否在外头对别的女生说了与她分手的这件事。

你伤害的是自己。

不过当你晓得，在你身旁的那一位，将是陪伴你到老兼照顾你下半身兼隔天将会与你结婚的伴侣，你是否还会选择D?

唉。。我想她现在应该是把我看成破坏他们之间感情的鸡婆。还有那自恋到不行（曾经因为误会我喜欢他而以为伤害了我只因为我再msn放了周杰伦的歌词）的faker，一定又以为我妒嫉他或是我喜欢他。=="

“只有当你站在未来的角度看着现在的自己，你会觉得很不解现在的无耻和冲动。我不会怪你不明白我对你所说的那番话，只能说我说得太早，所以你不了解。有谁会想要知道真相？宁愿相信自己幻想的梦，都不愿相信发生在你眼前的事情。”

这是事情发生后的那一天，我想对她说的话，但却被一封道歉email代替了。

无论如何，现在看你们又恢复以前那模样，我感到很幸运因为没当上千古罪人。

身为女生的我，希望你能别在伤害自己的幸福。

你懂我意思吗？

王菲的旋木，越听越有韵味，越有感觉。

橘子的爱情小说，激动得说不出来的爱情，脸上忧郁的表情，手上时常拿根烟的女主角，黑色幽默。这是我对她的小说的感觉。

九把刀的等一个人咖啡，读了后，最让我深刻印象的是肯亚咖啡。

肯亚这地方，一直让我觉得是个穷人的王国兼小孩的肚子和脑袋都是大大的兼秃鹰与面临死亡的小孩的地方。如此让我轻易施舍我的同情的地方。

肯雅咖啡。我还是搞不懂这和爱情故事有什么关联，但却让我感到深刻。

我在有一次拍照后，那按快门后的亮光，久久不能从我的眼睛消失。突然让我想起这么一句话，你的笑容在我的脑海中，浑散不去。

沉溺在自己的忧伤世界，久久出不来，宁愿选择留恋不放手，没有什么是永虽不朽，爱情也是一样。我不是在说我，只是发现一些人需要的不是忧伤的歌曲和歌词，需要的是放手。

在车上，风景都看透了，却没有一幕是深刻的，真让我感到可悲。一幕幕正等待我发觉的风景从我眼前划过，却留不住我的心。反而，那乖乖地伫立在马路旁的灯柱，却让我感动，它们永远在人的眼中是那么的无聊。无聊的外观，无聊的姿态，无聊的生命。却没发觉到它们正享受着原地奔跑的忧伤。

人类，永远都在抢戏，试着当一个抢眼的人，就像是那风景。

灯柱，无聊，却很有戏。

band 仔

从今年开始，我就和一班没头没脑的band仔（他们称他们自己酱的）同班。

去年的时候，听说3L(band的班)有同学在PMR做弊，所以对他们没什么好印象。

不过，到了今年的七月，我只能说他们真的是很GENG!!

他们读书和做功课的时间比我们少很很很很很多，可是他们仍然是那么的厉害。

但这不是重点，重点是他们热爱音乐，把南华国中的乐队搞得有声有色。~拍掌~

今年的Top One非垠佑（band仔）莫属。

讲到成绩，我想我这四年吃的饭应该吐出来了，白吃！！

站岗的辛酸

其实为什么我会当上巡查员，我也不知道。我记得宇尉告诉我，我的存在在巡查员团体里只不过只是多了一个戴着领带却只会站在自己的岗位站着的那一个巡查员，简单的来说，我是多余的。

几hurt一下咯，害我到现在还记着。

但是上了上午班后，我发觉到我的胆量可能被朋友激发出来后，慢慢再也不是那多余的巡查员了。可是，有时候我就是心太软，哈哈！早上站在Exit Gate站了整20分钟，从7.10分站到7.30，而我的工作是在7.30后抄下迟到的学生，那20分钟在那边做阿呆。

通常迟到的都是走路来学校的学生，而非常对不起的说，我从来没抄他们的名。因为通常在打钟后的那一刻，他们冲着进来学校。而在7.35之前，jaga 就已经把Exit Gate锁上。

In conclusion，我站了25分钟的时间，只有5分钟时间是有意义的。==

Random

*This is a long post. I'm not responsible for your eye soreness or the wasting of time.

I choose not to become so emo.

I choose not to remember all the old bad stuff.

I choose to forgive the FAKER, and her girlfriend who recently always boom me in her blog.

I choose to forgive those who pretend to be someone else or in another word, hypocrite.

I choose not to upset or blame myself after getting my midterm exam result.

I choose TRY TO DO HOMEWORK.

The main reason for me to have those decision, is God.

You may not believe in God. You believe that by doing a lot of additional mathematics would help you in your exam. You believe that by studying would give you assurance in your life and happiness.

But when you achieve something or target, you wish to achieve more. Human is never satisfied although when we are perfectly created. And at the end, you are not happy, you would never own happiness.

I remember when I was still living in my shop when I was ermm...maybe 5 years old or older than that. One night, I was awake and I can't sleep in the middle night. I was afraid, because if I opened my eyes, I might see ghosts. So I called my mum. She was awake and she prayed for me.

Just after she started her prayer, I was asleep at once. That's so cool.

When I was form two, I was seriously sick. I think I sick for almost one week, the next day mum is going to brng me to hospital.

That afternoon, I was lying on the bed. Daddy came in, he told me he was going to pray for me. I was having fever that time. Just after his prayer, just after the "Amen" word uttered from my mouth, I felt the sickness was taken away, and I was healed.

In the early month of June, I lost my wallet. With my id card and money inside, fyi, if you report lose of your id card and remake it, you have to pay RM120. I prayed to God just after I knew my wallet was lost and I couldn't find it in school as well as places where I went. I felt peace in my heart, I knew I am going to get my wallet back. I knew it, I didn't even feel nervous or screaming desperately for my wallet.

But after one week, there's no news about my wallet. So I went to police station to make a report, JUST WHEN MY DAD AND I WERE GOING TO JPN TO DO IC( where I would kena saman for 120 bucks), sth happened. Dad's hp rang.

Mum: Eh where are you?

Dad: I am in the bank. Going to Jpn. Why?

Mum: Someone found Ting Hui's wallet and he brought it to the shop.

*This is the weird part. The ID card's address is my house address, then why would this guy( i think is a teacher) brought it to my shop? He knows me? And he says it's found in school's field. Apparently, the money is gone but other things remained.

God is the creator of this whole world, He creates you and me. His only Son, Jesus sacrifices His body at the cross. God creates us, and forgive us. So can you imagine? The creator of everything, forgive us when we always sin and break His heart.

So when the creator of everything forgive us, why not we forgive other people?

Recently many problems happened and many people try to have a fight with me. For example the FAKER's gf la and so on.

Forgive and forget.

Bye~

Bore

Sometimes, ppl just don't appreciate friends. They dump friends when they are not useful anymore or stick with them when they are giving you benefits.

I think I'm becoming this kind of ppl. Not the one getting dumped, but the one who dumps. But I'm more like, err, a bore. Do you get it?

When they asked me out, I'll think of many reasons just want to stay at home. When chatting with friends, seriously, I think I've been ignoring most of them these few weeks. So now I rather just don't sign in MSN or making myself offline in Facebook.

Why? Why am I doing this?

I don't know. I simply don't feel excited anymore when they are organizing hang-out in weekends.

I finished reading ps I love you which I bought two years ago. Holly, who became a bore after turning into a lonely widow, recognized herself as a bitch. She thought she's being selfish, and turning the atmosphere down during the hen night of her best friend. (ps: hen night - a party held by woman who is about to married.) She's being jealous and hating seeing her friends went on in their lives without her.

So Holly has her problem, because losing her love ones.

What about mine? What's the stupid problem that I've been oblivious with it? I don't know, maybe I'm just like the typical teenager, emoing around. LOL.

Ignorance is your new best friend

I'm so sorry that I've been ignoring you recently, I mean my blog.

It's not that I'm lazy to write or what, I just can't think of any thing to write.

Now too.

Okay, let say about the trip.

Yesterday went to KL along with school trip organised my Miss Ho. It was okay only, because I found out all the time I was sticking onto the bus seat, which made me sick.

My leg is aching like it didn't happen in my life before.

But I bought something, at least.

See, I just ran out of things to say. I guess I had already talked my entire life in my blog, LOL.

My friend told me she is more into things like topic about "life'', or something connected to our life. Erm, lol.

Bye.