The Shattered Life

施比受更为有福

2012-02-16T11:35:00.001+08:00

昨天，我驾着老爸的新车和我妈妈去载jae vern

当我的妈妈和babysitter谈天的时候，我在车上等

突然间

有一位老伯伯踏着一辆很像是老伯伯会踏的脚车经过

他在我的车不远处的住家门口

拿了旧报纸

我心想，哦原来是收集旧报纸

当他转身向着我的车时

我才发现，原来他不是什么老伯伯

他是我小学同班同学

我听说他在很小时候，不小心撞伤了头

后来就是呆呆的

我坐在我的新车上，我的心揪了起来

甚至还有点慌

因为他的脸上的那笑容从来没变过

他一直都是笑着

当我以车代步，他必须要踏着那辆看似老伯伯会踏的脚踏车，轮子超大的那一种

正当你们在某处上着college，走了几步路就喊累，在那里update fb status 时

他必须每天去收集旧报纸

正当我在家喊闷连电脑都没法满足我时

他必须每天去收集旧报纸

他今年十八岁，和我们大家都一样

正当我们都move on时，他就被stucked在这里，永远收旧报纸

在我印象中，他有一个很疼爱他的姐姐

常常下课时拉着他的手去吃免费餐，有时候喂他吃

有时候，我心里想

为什么上帝要那么不公平，总是会存在着这一些不幸的一群

不过，往往就是这一些在我们眼中看似不幸的这一些人

让我们警惕着自己，是有多幸福

每一个人的遭遇不一样，开心的理由也会不一样

他可能因为今天收多了几家的旧报纸，就开心了好久

现在你若每天三餐温饱，这对你说没什么好开心的

但是对于非洲的小孩，那可是一种奢侈的幸福，遥不可及

不过，回头说，你最后一次的好开心，好满足，好幸福的moment又是几时？

我忘了，感觉上好像是很久以前的事情

对于很多事情我已经没有太大的感觉

不过这一切对于他们还是那么的新鲜

我想上帝不是不公平，他们的存在对于一个平衡社会非常重要

圣经说，施比受更为有福

总是要有一方是接受，另一方施舍

不过有多少人会意识到这一点？

当我看到我的同班同学的遭遇后

我写了信息给他

他竟回我说

“你现在才看到他收旧报纸啊？我都看过很多次了咯”

那是重点吗？拜托

别问我是谁

2012-01-19T11:00:00.000+08:00

祝你生日快乐~ 祝你生日快乐~

祝你生~日~快~乐~~~

祝你生日快乐！！~~

今天我非常生日歌不可，因为今天是某人的生日

他就是-------

我的部落格的4岁生日啦~！！！

其实我从来都没好好经营这里

去过什么地方，或是吃过什么好吃的东西

都懒得拍照

这里充满的只是我的文字

坦白说，我平时真的很不喜欢看一大堆字的博文

因为我很懒惰

不知道大家有没有一种感觉，就是会很想要站在离自己不远处的某个角落

看着自己说话，看着自己交朋友，看着自己哭泣

我很想要从我自己的身体跳出来，然后细看自己的一切

我开始写blog也是因为我喜欢上这样的感觉

每当我写完了一篇，我会重复读很多遍

若是有人给了comment，我又会重新把文章读一遍，站在他的立场来看待自己

这一些文字我可是放足了我的情感去写

纯粹我很爱这么一样的自己

可以把情感寄放在某处，看着它飘落，吹散，然后感叹

因此我从来没有好好经营这里，好让更多人来看或是什么的

来这里看blog的人，感觉上没有几个人，因为很少人会向我提及

今天既然是我的blog生日

来过这里，看过这一篇文章的你

是不是应该有一点表示呢？

往下去按个“赞”，让我知道你来过

然后顺便留一个言，说说你对这里的感觉是什么吧！！

希望我能再为他庆祝更多的生日吧！！

回顾之2011

2012-01-05T23:50:00.003+08:00

其实说穿了，在一整年里我并没有达到任何我之前设下的目标

或者是这么说吧，我从来都没有成功过

Prefect Orientation

不过，我还是生存了下来

Prefect Farewell

一开始知道自己跌班了，我欣然接受

5SC

First time meeting a Japanese exchange student, and became friend ever since

说真的，人必须要在一个完全不熟悉的环境下

才可以让自己的思想更清晰

显然今年我再清晰不过了

因为发生了一些重大的事情，让我的生命从此改变

从衣食住行开始改变一直到我的人生观

Chinese knowledge exam at Nan Hwa high school

我一直以来都不喜欢任何改变或更动的人

我也不排撤像我一样不喜欢任何改变或更动的人

不过我痛恨没有梦想和方向的人

Ipoh Education Fair

正如我痛恨自己的迷茫一样

在我十六岁的时候，我期待着十七岁

Graduation Day

去年我毕业了

今年我将要上pre-u 阶段

Picnic at Teluk Batik

A visit to the ship in Navy Base

每一年都会有很大的变化

唯一不变的是我对新的一年的期盼

Church Family Camp

因为跨了一年，我更接近了人生未端

我的记忆库又增重了一些

Ah Gong's birthday

我所犯过的错更多

我的思绪比从前更复杂了一些

我也应该成长了不少吧？

今年最大的改变有三样事情

其实是有四样，不过其中一样还在进行式

也许那一天我会告诉你？

第一样就是这位大叔的诞生啦！！

Watching Football

他超可爱的啦！！

第二项，我大姐的婚礼！

你看我特地选了她看起来非常好看的照片

因为接下来的更好看！！XD

我第一次化稍微浓的妆，而且第一次我照了镜子下巴会很自然得掉下来然后眼睛没法眨！

然后遇到生平中第一次的搭讪

我记得当晚卸装时我差点难过得哭了

第三样，我流长了头发

此举证明了我的坚持！！

4th of April

5th of January

刚刚我一直在想到底在2011年中什么事情让我开心了好久？

我想到的只是最近我买了人生中的第一个名牌

美吼？超便宜的！

无论如何，2012年绝对不会是大家预料之中的一年

你觉得是末日？它就可以偏偏不是

你觉得不是？它就偏偏是！

因为你我都知道，掌控这一切的是那一位神

那一位在我们出乎意外的神

Source: Jenny Lau Bee Kean

日记

2011-12-19T21:17:00.003+08:00

星期一雨天

睡醒了，刚才我所发的梦依然清晰，一直在我脑海中回荡着

他是谁？我不晓得

不过我记得他拥有着与其他人不相同的气质

似乎只有在我眼中才能看见的气质

他拉着我的手不知所措，就在那棵大树下他不顾一切地尝试把话说完

他的手好冰哦

哦对了，为什么那棵大树不断地婆娑？

原来是暴风雨

我依然听不见他想要说的是什么

梦中好寂静，却很伤感

耗费了一段刷牙的时间，我依然记不起来他的样子

把手机盖划上，9.20a.m

呵，很习惯地把它当着时钟来看待

空当的信箱是否意味着一些东西呢？

面子书上人来人往

我看见了你的执著，没有任何回应，头也不会地离开

为何你从不放弃漂泊？

我愕然发现原来往后我们会离开起点

回忆会在那里一触即发

然后我们会一起分享此刻的我们

肚子撑着那份被味精化的午餐

打了一声嗝，自己不好意思地笑了起来

都不晓得自己在不好意思什么

饭厅空当得给了我最彻底的回应

原来已经1.00 pm

电脑无聊得我不想碰

我回到了我的床上，发呆

不知道何时睡着了

我梦见了她，她对着我说他已经离开了她

抓着我的手，扼腕地问我有没有人可以代替他

激动得哭了起来，跌坐在地上，问我可不可以理解

一切发生得太快，梦醒了原来已经3.00pm

本来已经很讨厌下雨天的午后

手上握着冷冰的方向盘，雨模糊了我的视线

好不容易到了教会，他们的吵闹，有点太欢乐

让我先听见圣诞节所传来的钟声，从不远方哦

6.00pm 雨细微地下着，似羽毛般飘落

晚餐、洗澡

听说台湾会很冷，因为这里刺骨的冷风温柔地、疯狂地吹着

阿桑陪我一整夜

野餐记

2011-12-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

说真的，我已经好久都没为某件事而感到激动和兴奋

就是那种晚上就算再累，都不怎么睡到觉或是发了一连串的梦

在星期二的傍晚，我们为ah mao farewell，在marina the bar

farewell 她去很远又很冷的国家 - 英国

虽然是farewell，不过我们都很开心 =.=

给于她的寄语，我们都写在卡片啦

还有那贵到要命的寒衣

ahmao 回家没有感动落泪，我会很郁闷！XD

令我有感触的地方是

要回家的时候，当我们并肩走着要到停车场时

那一阵海风

很强烈

晚上睡觉时，因为隔天要去海边野餐

超兴奋的！我都睡不着

因为睡不着，我想起刚才的那一阵海风

很强烈

我一直以来对于海都有一种莫名的热血

每次看到海，我都会很乐

spm折磨了我这么久

当我听见海浪拍打着沙滩上时

当我吹着迎面而来的海风

当我看见这一片又宽、又蓝、好无止境的海时

它不只宽阔了我的视野，也宽阔了我对大自然的大爱

为什么上帝可以把海创造得那么悠蓝？

简直让我忘了这一年来一直呆在的那小小房间，还有那小小心房

小得无法容纳任何人

当时，和朋友们在一起的时刻只有疯狂和欢乐

把我这orz都忍不住跳跃得高高的

阳光很灿烂

这一切都映入眼帘

也许在我生命中发生了一些事情令我的世界崩裂

让我从此无法看见阳光

不过此景在我眼前的当下

我融化了

垂滴在幸福中

哦！对了！

我好久不见的海龟

在那一天我遇见了它

你看见它了吗？

不知道它过得怎么样？

严爵说休息是为了走更长的路

这是真的哟

但我们总要晓得我们是为了什么而走更长的路

而我希望祂能永远是我的旅途

在我们离开的时候

我向海道别

那一天我看开的，不只是对于他再已不存在我的旅途里

还有那一片大海

再见咯~

我很想去pulau tioman 啦！！！

后记：那一阵风，依然很强烈哦~

白目念头和宏伟梦想的一线之差

2011-12-08T15:51:00.003+08:00

其实我一直以来很想写小说

想到什么，就写什么

我要这女主角永远寂寞也行

我要这男主角为她疯狂也行

总之结局一定要是凄惨的

剧情必须要极为幸福来衬托这结局的残忍

写任何东西，都为的是那结局

可以不择手段，为所欲为地铺成情节

为什么？

说不上为什么，我就是想要这么做

或许人生太多的事情，我想要发生的事情

都在我还没等到结局时已经崩溃

可能是因为结局并不如我所愿

所以不算！重新再来过！

我就是这样

选择听我想要听的

做我想要做的

所以那一天我打开了microsoft word

决定写一篇轰动全世界包括橘子本人的小说

我面对着电脑前的空白

正等着我去填补这空白一页的microsoft word

我心想着要用第一人称写吗？

要不要先做一个构图，概述一下情节啊?

那些鬼屁优美句子要不要拿来参考一下？

光是想这一些，完全、彻彻底底地打消了写小说这件事

我自认白目，呵。。说写什么小说

这故事告诉我们

你曾经的伟大梦想，会因着自己设下的局限

而最终堕落成为你自己认为的白目念头

就在这一线之差哦

我想，创作这门东西

还是即兴会比较好，因为是最真诚

没有经过大脑的真诚会比较触目惊心

妈妈依然爱着你

2011-12-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

其实我是红着眼眶写着这一篇

因为说真的，如果我是你

我早已经放弃自己

你已经好厉害了

好好生活

她会以你为傲

至少你会好过一点

对不起，我是由你的朋友才知道这件事

我真得很希望现在的我

是你的好朋友

可以在你身边支持你

但我不是，因为我们真的不熟

我很想安慰你

但是若我是你，对于陌生人的安慰

我会认为那是嘘寒问暖

同时

我不希望知道任何详情

关于她痛苦离去的详情

因为 truth hurts

从此以后，你只会比别人飞得高

比别人来得更坚韧

她的离去，必定要成为你活得更有意义的动力

守护着你的，不只是她哟

别读

2011-12-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

七次了

我上来这，然后打了两行的字

结果什么都写不出

这重复动作，一共有七次

他们说这是 “克莫斯勒亚症状”

你不要去google

因为这病状不存在，只是我随意哈拉的

我太过无聊

因为生命曾经起伏很大

大到你现在叫我跳bungee jump 我都嫌太sub sub the water 了，拜托

你就允许我在这，毫无思绪地把我不晓得的东西写下

后天考文学，我在这。。

本来要练文笔，不过，我真的已经思绪平如镜，静如水

没有任何的波动，我不懂怎么办啦

算了

我去吃一些启发性的橘子，用九把刀切

够波动了吧

还原-ing

2011-10-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

那一天下课的时候

我照旧地头也不会地从他们当中默默离开

就在那时候，有这么一个声音告诉我

“婷慧，你是怎么了？”

我有一点措手不及，因为那声音正是来自我心里最底层的那一块传来

有时微弱的连我都听不见的声音

现在却惊动了我，因为连我都不知道何时的我变得如此

如此计较

如此固执

如此冷莫

当下的我，选择逃避这声音

我对自己说：“习惯就好。。”

却在昨晚上

星期六晚上-青少年聚会- 赞美敬拜-

有股暖流涌进那早已沉睡的热诚

当下的我不晓得有什么意义在里头

但是我觉得我的内心正在转变着

突然想起，

在学校的食堂，一起下课，一起share share

在学校的厕所，捂着嘴巴鼻子照镜子

在学校的草场，在大树下聊废话

在学校的隔壁，一起吃早餐

在学校的对面，放学时，有这么一位朋友踏脚车到我身旁陪我等妈妈来载我

因为变质了

不可能可以毫无缺陷、毫无痕迹地还原

但是不是因此

我就得忽略了曾今的时候

曾今在大风刮时一起放风筝的时候

曾今在中秋节在ah mao 家提灯笼的时候

曾今在新年时踏脚车拜年的时候

曾今一起踏脚车去wonderful gift 买礼物的时候

我没有忘记那些“曾今的时候” 以及在学校哈哈大笑的日子

只不过被我收藏起来

我觉得应该没有人（包括我）在那些“曾今的时候” 的日子

很用力地笑时

晓得如今的我们却变得如此

回不去的终究回不去

那么就从新来过吧

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http://shatteredlife511.blogspot.com/2009/07/blog-post.html
http://shatteredlife511.blogspot.com/2010/02/blog-post.html
http://shatteredlife511.blogspot.com/2010/03/blog-post_10.html
http://shatteredlife511.blogspot.com/2010/08/definition-of-happiness.html

连我现在都没办法相信我曾今写过这一些文章

你的在意，你的努力，我看见

每晚和我说晚安

只不过这一切暂时显得生疏

我有点受宠若惊

给我一点时间吧

还有这粉红色生日卡片

我没忘记

随你怎么说

2011-09-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

很多时候，当我站在生命巅峰

回头把我的人生再看一遍时候

很多事情显得透彻

透彻得你可以一眼看到底

我最爱这时候

因为曾经也许被称为的“forbidden memory"都承载着浓厚的回忆

可以无拘束、尽情地回忆一遍

因为放下了

有时就是放下了，所以才离开

可以毫无保留地离开

友情这一份东西，我早已放得下

可以不去在意任何东西而离开

你们的一举一动都让我贬低了自己的价值

是否我的存在感可有那么低吗？

为什么没有人要和我说话？

幸好所存留下来的，都因着不认同我对于自己的想法

而继续存留在我的身边

其余的，总是需要我的时候出现

我需要的时候消失

确有这么一个人告诉我

“谁叫你随便付出真心？谁叫你这么单纯？”

我宁愿继续付出真心，虽然会被痛恨地蹂躏一遍（我是说我的真心，不是我的身体），而不要错过那继续愿意和我说话的人

他们的不闻不问

是因为我长得可怕？

还是从来没有人像要问？

我一直很在意这么一件事情

去年，我很想庆祝生日

因为一直以来我从来没有和朋友庆祝过生日

不是我不愿意

因为朋友的不闻不问

甚至在中一时候，有这么一位朋友和我说：“我因为买了某某某的生日礼物而没有钱买你的，所以生日快乐！”

哈哈，可笑吧？

所以去年的时候，我想应该是最后一次庆祝生日的时候吧

因为今年是考试年

所以我开口问了

他们答应了

就在Kenneth's place

我当晚一个人坐在未端

没有任何我说话，只是偶尔会有人敷衍我一下

我只收到一份礼物，而且是来自一位和我不是很熟的隔壁班朋友

完毕后

我一直以为会有礼物还是surprise

结果我自己付钱，他们付他们的

本来我姐要和我庆祝，结果我说：“哈哈哈！！你没有机会！我朋友要和我庆祝。”

去**的生日，从此我很讨厌祝生日，因为会让我想起表错情的糟糕感觉

结果回到家

姐姐：“有没有收到礼物？”

我：“有。。”

姐姐：“我要看！”

我：“下次给你看”

姐姐：“有没有很开心？还是和我庆祝会更开心？”

我：“很开心。。”

我也从此不想和任何一位来自他们那一群的朋友出去

因为不想再自讨苦吃，自己丢自己的脸

中三那一年，因为想到能和他们继续同班

我差一点开心到爆

结果坐我旁边的一年到头都把椅子移到隔壁一桌

而中四的时候，她竟然问回我：“欸？去年你和谁坐啊？”

我不想要乞讨任何东西

因为你们不值

去年月考，每一个人都受到bio tips，除了我

到了学校才晓得是考 rodent and ruminant

“哈哈哈哈！！你没有收到tips啊？”

没有人和我道歉（因为之前吩咐过他们记得传给我）

只有这一位朋友的讥笑

今年考trial

同样的，他们收到的其中几封是我传给其中一位的女生然后我吩咐她把tips传给他们

结果，同样的是bio，到了学校才晓得我收到错的tips

而他们没有人把正确的传给我

我愤怒的是

为什么我这么得noob？

没有人会想起我

是我的问题？

我太高？

我太无聊？

我太废？

还是我太奇怪？

你会问我

为什么我要把这一些都写下来？

因为我要忘记，所以写下，把记忆空了出来，赤裸裸地写下

然后彻底忘记。

也许以后看回这一篇，我会把这一切都拿来回忆一遍

只好对读者们说

谢谢你愿意读这一遍

我truly感激

读书破万卷，下笔如有神

2011-09-21T21:54:00.005+08:00

今天考华文，让我们又爱又恨。

我选了这题目---（4）知识是美好前途的保障（试说你的看法）

在以刚开始看到这题目时我直接跳过了，因为我从没写过议论文，或许写过，但是都没能拿到高分

而最近不知道什么问题，写抒情文的感性以及记叙文的创意都被埋没了

或许从来没开启过，因为在我的印象中我的作文都是偏低

这让我很寂寞，因为没了分数的陪伴= 没了共鸣 = 没了认知 = 没了同类 = 绝种

我开玩笑啦，怎么可以随便让学校华文老师来主宰我们对华文的热情呢？

因为主宰的是骆驼

为什么是骆驼？

因为我的热情，好像一片沙漠

沙漠。。骆驼

不好笑对不对？我也这么认为

好，回归整题。。我跳过了题目，所以看了（1）感恩

我想了好久，有什么事情值得感恩滴。。

有老师，父母。。。

就是这样。千篇一律。。就是只有这两方面

最终没了办法，因为其他题目都必须牵涉到故事，我就是没办法写啊！！

（4）知识是美好前途的保障（试说你的看法）

我想了想，不对，知识怎么可以成为美好前途的保障？保障？？？美好前途的保障？？！！

若有了外在的因素，如--政治，道德价值观的扭曲，国家的安危，心灵以及身体上的健全--的话，知识随时会被淘汰！

再加上那些执意自己族群的极端理念的恐怖分子？或是其他为了达到目的而用尽了办法的坏人？

他们滥用知识，站在知识的巅峰，企图创造出对于自己有利的武器。

他们的确拥有了美好前途的保障，不过却造就了他人生命的终点！！

不能成为美好前途的保障，反而成为绊脚石！

真是的，什么题目来？这么的极端，这么的肤浅！！

经过了心中的一段OS之后，刹那间。。。

（试说你的看法）

（试说你的看法）！！

我突然醒悟，华文考卷好像在给我这个脸〉〉〉〉 =.=

哈哈，原来是叫我提供我的看法啦，我太冲动了。

所谓：读书破万卷，下笔如有神

我平时的书籍都被我乱摔，乱丢

破得也不少，没有一万，都会有几百卷吧

我肯定可以下笔好像神般！

希望我能获取高分，因为这次我很期待

Lesson learned

2011-09-20T14:14:00.005+08:00

It was a wonderful day. I spent time memorizing colonization and succesion during the night at 11.30p.m. After that I went to sleep.

Woke up at 3.00a.m, went to make a coffee, devoured it while doing revision on Biology.

Looking at the list which was clearly written about what are going to be tested on later.

Hey, it's cheating! But well, question leak, everyone has that, in Perak.

Looking at the list:

Colonization and succesion (yo ticked)

Support and loco ( ticked)

monohybrid (ticked)

bla bla

Yes, i finished reading them. I am so gonna owned them.

And guess what happened? Reached at the school, finding there are actually another version of tips.

And none of them telling me about it.

Paper 2 and paper 3 has nth related to the tips that I spent times memorizing.

Great.

你是懒惰虫

2011-08-29T12:04:00.004+08:00

瓦靠，什么事情发生？？？

我的 “火星人篇” 在短时间内有80多的点击率？

橘子超出名的啦，我随便提一提她的名字，破了我平时少得可怜的点击率的post

你们不妨也试一试呀

今天是假期，我难过到不行

因为没得跟教会的人一起去爬山玩水

而且我现在开电脑也得偷偷摸摸，不然家人会骂啦

可是我也好久没开了

预考要到了。。

这就是我不喜欢写部落格的原因，因为会腾出自己好好反省的时段

然后写到一半非常内疚

然后我就会很神经质的突然把全部东西关掉

回房读书

每读多久

就睡着了

醒了之后

就会很想

开电脑！！

我要疯了，因为其实我开电脑更本没东西要做

面子书很无聊

部落格，不见得有人看

好啦，这样好了

我们大家一起把电脑关好不好

该去上班的就去

该去做家务的就去

该预备考试的就去

该练琴的加油吧

再见啦

让我们一同打击懒惰虫！！

p/s: 摘至于GOOGLE 我不晓得画酱可爱的东西啦

火星人篇

2011-08-06T14:26:00.003+08:00

其实，离开的不只是爱情，还有的是自己。

我在一个晚上，把橘子的----《唱給火星人的10首情歌》一口气读完。

读到了1.30a.m

我呆呆的看着 --全文完-- 这三个字

有点失落，因为童恩最终还是去了日本

去了东京铁塔

人来人往的人群当中很容易寂寞的东京铁塔

我睡觉醒来

睁开眼睛的那一刹那，不知为什么却想起这么一句话

“其实，离开的不只是爱情，还有的是自己。”

很橘子的一句话

我很努力地recall到底在哪里听过或是读过这么一句话

。。。

我想不起来

失落了一段刷牙的时间

之后认真地把这句话写起来

然后思考

爱情离开后，总是把你心中的某部分也带走

取而代之的是寂寞和悲伤

因为爱情的突变，连自己也变了

不再是曾经所把持着的那一颗心

怎么能说得上自己的呢？

都是橘子惹的祸

我太入戏了啦。。哈哈

我要回去我的星球了

掰掰

Redirecting...

2011-07-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

I walked on the winding roads, acknowledged clearly so many bends that I had forgotten where to begin with.

Heavy footstep sounded so uncertain.

Every step bespoke of the pain I took.

Swerved to the left, in all my spite.

Swerved to the right, I hold on to my rights.

Hold on to my solid conscience, lead by the blinding lights which was raised on the road at the point where I had started to screw up.

Couldn’t scream it out.

Couldn’t find the way out.

The asphyxiated states contradict with the apparition’s life.

I stood on my perspective, observing their deafeningly clueless complaints and so called pain.

So ironic, so annoying that the contradiction between us annoyed me.

Just like how the Light which shone into my hopes and expectation.

How contradict could it ever be between His light and my life?

Between His holiness and my sins.

I have nothing to lose; nothing is left to be taken away.

What can I do when I’m already in this state that I am losing the control?

When we failed to grip hold the facts, it’s time to get back where we should have belong to.

Faith.

It’s so abstract that it overcomes the concrete.

Please, hold on to the one who electrify this universe.

He will always be and forever be the one who electrify your seemingly dying life too.

约伯 记 Job:

5:17

神所惩治的人是有福的。所以你不可轻看全能者的管教。

5:18

因为他打破，又缠裹。他击伤，用手医治。

雨时的狼狈

2011-06-29T22:23:00.002+08:00

雨后总是天晴的

就算再大的暴风

也有天晴的时候

我听着雨滴的声音

听着阳光被残留

残留后的复出

其间是多么的心碎

“悲欢离合总无情。一任阶前、点滴到天明。”

蒋捷到最后的心情，再也没像少年、壮年时那么的澎湃，那么的刻苦铭心。

我想象老年时的他，在僧庐下，在一个只容许平静的地方

细听着雨滴进他心坎里

那么的清脆，那么的心碎

他放下了吗？

也许只有在雨滴时，他任凭忧郁忧愁泛滥，直到天明。

hotcakes!

2011-06-01T10:46:00.010+08:00

放假，我的最爱。因为每天早上8.30起床，刷牙洗脸，吃个早餐，坐在钢琴前自由地与音乐纠缠不清。

为什么是纠缠不清？

因为最近我在学新歌，周杰伦Secret电影中叶湘伦想回到过去的那一首曲子。

那首足以让我抓发的歌，我就是很爱！

这星期里，我和我哥都很闷，所以想出去。讨论了好久，想到的除了看电影，就是吃~

Sitiawan除了吃，还是吃。服了吧？

甚至闷到把tesco当Midvalley来逛，天哪，来搭救我们吧！

前天和依琳、阿毛到k box 唱 K，那是我第一次去唱k，因为之前都没机会去。唱到我。。。门牙被mic敲到。

裂了。

我回家照镜子，我的心往下沉，虽然不明显，但是怎么这么容易就裂了？！

那时我第一次唱k，虽然只有三个人，但是我唱到很爽，我点的歌曲有孙燕姿的歌----我不难过与我很好，其他的有倒带、七里香等等

一个字爽爆了！

咦？是三个字噢？随便啦

还有阿毛唱歌很不错叻...

昨天和哥哥到secret recipe 吃下午茶，结果害得我晚餐都吃不下。

Pecan Butterscotch

Tiramisu

还有一杯oreo milkshake，喝完那一杯东西，我差点吐了出来，好腻，但我爱。

后来我们跑去看屋子，听说在佛教会旁边有一间超美的屋子。

对不起，很不明显。但是你亲眼看见的话，你会O嘴。因为真的很很很很大一间！

这是刚刚拍下的，也还好，但让我联想到燕子屋，因为这间屋子有四层。=.=

这间让我很囧，是住家屋子吗？怎么像是什么国家的国会大厦？

很像对吧？

今天早上和哥哥去了mc donald吃早餐，瞒着母亲到那吃早餐。

真得很满足，因为很好吃哦

那burger的cheese有点漫溢出来，很像在做着这表情 =P

肚子饿了吧？

*电话响*

我妈刚打来说，她等下很想吃mcd，所以没煮午餐。

=.= omg la!

突然间有一点想吐。。

BOOORING

2011-05-31T21:39:00.004+08:00

During the exam week, I was easily distracted, always wanted to find something to look at, to read at or to listen on.

And so I accidentally found some pictures of mine.

I thought of uploading them, because they are very much entertaining.

Lol...

I laughed very hard when I see this. I was like havin a shock (std 6)

Form 1

Form 4

I had tomyam during recess, rushed to the library to take this photo. haha (Form 4)

Yea almost 80 percent ppl telling me I look exactly like Jee Hor in this photo. =.= Yes I do think so when Mr Pang gave me this photo. loool ( Form 5)

我回来了!!

2011-05-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

长达21天的考试周，终于也熬过去了。。

在填上考试最后一张试卷的答案时，我叹了长达5秒钟的气，就好像气球泄气般，瘫在桌子上。

我真得很讨厌躺在桌子上睡觉，因为睡醒我真个脸会歪掉，但是没有办法，有很多张paper考完后，都还剩一个钟头多的时间。

考试时间该长的不长，该短的不短。

这21天。。。

天啊！我是怎么熬过来的？？

我已经很不想提我的熊猫眼，但我还是要说一下，真的很很很累！

总觉得书读不完的。。

我发现到只要是写作文，无论是英文或华文，我一定是写很可怜又伤心的故事，而且一定和爸妈有关的故事。

我还记得上次submit给校刊的essay是关于父母离异，后来我跟随着母亲生活。她常年在外国做生意，我一个人住在豪宅，很emo。我很讨厌把我家庭搞得非常糟糕的那位抢走我父亲的女人。

这次英文考试，我写的是：父亲有了另外一个女人，我和妈妈与弟弟一起生活，弟弟后来步入歧途，变成了毒贩。。。=.=

这次华文考试，我写的是父亲变得好赌而最后赔上了自己的生命，我和母亲相依为命。在我五岁的那一年，母亲带我到游乐场，坐在旋转木马前的板凳上，她离开我，从此我变成了孤儿。

后来在小学六年级，有位老师领养我，她教会我怎么让爱改变这世界。。

哈哈哈，在考试时很多华文字忘了怎么写。。而且我也写了好多歌词，但不小心把那一段“当爱相随，能完美一切不完美。。”给忘了

我不知道自己到底有什么欲望，为什么总是幻想这些东西。。。

我很想开pps啦，可是哥哥在家。。=.=

200 facts about me

2011-05-20T14:21:00.002+08:00

I got this from my friend. lol You read it finish i give you a lollipop........with a condition where you have to remember the answer. Just kidding, no lolli for you.

Haha

200. My full name is: Cheng Ting Hui

199. I was born on: 11/5/1994

197. My cell phone company is: Sony Ericsson

196. My eye color is: Sparkling Black ==

195. My shoe size is: 8 or 9

194. My ring size is: Ring size? S eh? dunno la

193. My height is: 176cm

192. I am allergic to: Dairy product which contain lactose.. Cheese and milk will make me diarrhea =O

191. I was born in: the midst of hardship, just kidding, it's in hospital la apaden

190. I live in: Sitiawan

189. The last book I read: Additional Mathematic (SUCCESS)

188. My bed is: creepy, shaky, and noisy, but comfy!

187: One thing you hate about yourself: for being lazy all the time, and often indulge myself in trivia and nonsense

179. My favorite Holiday is: Christmas!

177. The last three cd's I bought: SONY CD-R 700mb, for recording purpose.

176. Last song that made me cry was: 我不难过- stefanie sun

175. Are you taken or Single: Single....and always be

174. If your taken, by who?: By a guy..

173. Do you like being single/taken?: nah, don't mind if i'm taken but i'm enjoying being single

170. What did you do last night?: Trying to revise 15 chapters of Add maths.. =.=

I Do (YES), Do Not (NO) Believe In :

142. Love at first sight?: Yes

141. Luck?: Yes.

140. Fate?: Nope, i see it as God's will

139. Yourself?: Myself? Yes or no? har?

138. Aliens?: Yes

137. Heaven?: Yes.

136. Hell?: Yes.

135. Ghosts?: YES i have my eyes closed when I turn the lights off before going to the bed...

134. Horoscopes?: Nope

133. Soulmates?: Yes

Which is Better?

129. Hugs or Kisses?: Kiss

128. Drunk or High: High (getting drunk very dangerous)

127. Phone or Online: Phone... hiak hiak hiak

126. Red heads or Black hair: Black

125. Blondes or Brunettes: Icy blonde with hair split in the middle.. =O

124. Hot or Cold: Hot

123. Summer or winter: Summer

121. Chocolate or vanilla: Creamy vanilla

120. Night or Day: Totally a night person

119. Oranges or Apples: Apples, because clever person observes it a lot, like doctor and newton XD

118. Curly or Straight hair: Straight

Here's What I Think About

116. Abortion: Your mum wish she aborted you last time if you do abortion

115. Backstabbers: Coward and get a life

114. Parents: Mum talks a lot and daddy is veh cool

Last time I

103. Went out of town: Last week, went to Ayer tawar church

102. Had food: Lunch

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: Yea, LI SIEW!!!!

100. Cried in front of someone?: Last month during the revolution night in Wesley!

99. Grew: LOL I have negative growth, does it count?

90. Who is the dizziest person you know?: my mum, she's always say sth I dun understand in the phone and is the most random ppl i've known so far

89. Who makes you laugh the most?: Myself, SAMMMYYY, and my mum

87.The last movie I watched: The Chorus. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Chorus_(2004_film) SUPER COOOOL

82. What I don't understand is: why does guy always irritate me?

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: Short forms msg " Idk, u 1 2 do wad l8tr?" Yes i am saying you. i mean YOU

79. Something I will miss when I leave home is: My piano, my bed and my comforter which comfort me when there's thunderstorm.

78. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: The last day when spm ends

77. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: The 1st day of spm starts

73. Tomorrow: Going to church??

72. Today: Just flunk my add maths and chemistry

71. Next Week: LAST WEEK OF MID YEAR TEST!!!!!!!!!

70. Next Summer: is going to be very hot

67. People call me: Green Tall Person, ting hui, oi, hey, wey, last but not least mei nv! haha

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Jesus. because i don't even know myself

60. The most difficult thing to do is: To study a month before the exam starts, tried for 13 years, never success

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Har?

56. My zodiac sign is: Taurus

55. The first person I talked to today was: Dad. He asked me " when ur exam ends?" he asked that since three weeks ago and forgot it every single day

54. First time you had a crush: Crush? Nuts? Hahahaha

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: Myself

52. Last time someone said something that you were thinking?: My neighbour, i was thinking today test is super hard, and he just said it to his dad at the same time. lol

51. Right now I am talking to: Philips. My monitor.. haha

50. What is your dream job?: To be famous, muahahah

49. First job?: in the church typing stuffs and receiving calls

48. I have/will get a job at? : church

47. I have these pets: Random bird that fell to my shop's kitchen, a puppy, a kitten and a HAMSTER!!!! It's like super cute

46. I hope: I can love God more than blogging, facebooking, music, and myself.

45. The worst sound in the world: The grumble of my stomach when i'm hungry or eaten sth bad, and during hiccup.

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: Myself

39. My girlfriend is: LOTTT!

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: skin

32. My favorite sport is: Badminton

31. Last time I cried: Last month

30. My friends are: not as cool as me. XD

29. My computer is: a devil

28. The school I go to is: not to let my parents worry, actually i rather study myself. ==

27. Last person I got mad at: The one who asked me if i would go the road and died.. ==

22. The all-time best movie is: STEPHEN CHOW

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: to be born in my family. My parents are cool, siblings are cool and to be given chances to learn music

20. The person you like is: logical person who talks wisely and knows music

19. The person you love is: my family

18. The most annoying person you know is: annoying? My back-door neighbour, who scolds her son whenever i am sleeping

17. I lose respect for people who: doesn't respect me and my family

16. The movies I have cried at are: can't remember

15. Closest friend name: Walao this set of question really endless... err i dun have CLOSEST friend, but i have lots of close friends

13. Favorite web site: Facebook, ideals for life.

12. I want to be: a musician

11.The worst pain I was ever in was?: Two days ago, stomach ache

10. My favorite word is: SERIOUSLY?????

9. My room is: messy. Lol, jee hwa will be cursing at me

8. My favorite celebrity is: JAY CHOU

5. My weakness is: being too extreme

4. What I like about the opposite sex: shoulders, long legs, flat stomachs, and small eyes!

3. Who broke your heart: Lots

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: To know god since the day i was born and dun have to worry if i would have to spread gospel to my family..

1. You filled out 200 questions because?: I want to escape exam, PHYSICS! IS! A! BITCH!!

悬空，正要掉落悬崖ing

2011-05-17T14:35:00.004+08:00

沉重的无力感，不知道要到何时才会停止。什么都不想做，什么都不想去想。

已经失去了活着的那一份热情。只是有时候去教会，还能暂且平息那无力感。

总觉得再也没有什么事可以让我去追逐或期待。同样的，再也没什么事可以让我感到一无所有的呆在自己的孤岛去伤心还是愤怒。

现在是考试周，还会持续两个星期。我此刻应该要感到压力还是紧张书读不完，但我竟然啥感觉都没，奋斗意志忍心离开我了吗？

我对将来临的放假、家庭营、双亲节庆和将要学驾汽车竟然一点期待都没有。Not at all.

对于吃饭也没感觉，有没有吃，只是一个日常生活的东西，没兴趣。

写着这篇文章，我的身体是向后靠，手指间温存着惰性，慵懒地趴着键盘。

这样的情况持续了好一段日子。

昨天去检查了我的体重，竟然瘦了3 公斤。

该死的3公斤，竟然背叛我，你岂能忍心离开我？害得我的校裙不时会移位，口袋悄悄地跑到后边去。

BMI仅剩下16.8 ，病态的体重谁稀罕，我想也只有减肥减上瘾的Model们吧，我不要。

七里香

2011-05-06T22:54:00.003+08:00

很久没上来这儿写东西，也许是因为长期失去了单独与自己灵魂和思想的时间。

最后一次播着音乐，写着感触与感性绞缠的文章，似乎是去年的事情。

是因为我太坚强，而忽视了心中脆弱的小孩，还是Mr Ong的错？

应该是Mr Ong吧。。。XD

透过发黄并生锈的铁网，强烈的阳光确是那么温柔地，轻轻地，斜斜地搭在我的肩膀上。

温热的风，依旧那么熟悉地让我追随着自己透彻的思想。透彻得让我什么都不想，只想当下的气息。

空中似乎漂浮着自己的思绪，好自由哦。。

大家埋头努力考试。

班上很宁静，独特的宁静让我很清新，也许班上在这一年到头都没静过吧，有着焕然一新的感觉。确实很平静，身上的集中在于我的双眼。

不知为什么，桌上堆满着涂改液的字迹，墙上不知是谁画上的模糊太阳，手上触摸着考试纸的触感，黄黄旧旧的科室，这一切的那一刹那，陈旧了我的视觉。

我好像代替着十年后的我看待这一刻，自足。

发黄的记忆来了太早了哦。。。=）

思念，连同那阳光，亲吻我的阳光，会随着我的那一叠思念，随之加增。

哎，差那落叶，我就可以唱 “院子落叶，更我的思念厚厚一叠”

哈哈！

最近，再AEC时常出现一个广告，是关于一部福建的连戏剧。

“你说会让我靠一辈子” 这一个台词。。。

然后，“问” 的这一首歌随之响起 ---- 只是女人容易一往情深，总是为情所困，终于越陷越深。

每次播这一画面，不知为什么我好想哭。

可能因为我是女人吧。。

Seventeen-gonna-be

2011-04-20T14:59:00.003+08:00

Well, basically if I don't blog for a few months, that indicates I am very busy.

Nah, just kidding, I've never been so busy that I don't have time to on my computer. I hope someday I do have this kind of situation, because it sounds very cool.

" Hey why I don't see you on Facebook recently?"

" Because I have at least 10 meetings to attend every day. Can you hold on for a while? I have to answer phone. Hello? Oh yea, 7 o'clock. No, that's not right. *2nd phone rings* Can you wait for me? *answers 2nd phone* Hello? No, I have meetings, I'm free next year."

"..... See you next year."

Haha, just kidding. I don't like that kind of lifestyle. I would die because of the radiation.

So, let's talk about my form 5 life. It's still as hectic as it should be, tuitions and homeworks. But somehow I don't feel like to end my high school life larh, I will definitely miss it.

You don't have chance to scream about in the class when you know the fact that teacher isn't coming. (Uh, I practically thank god when I know my malay teacher isn't coming. =P)

You don't get to know friends that will stick to you whenever you go if your classmate is changing every day.

You don't have chance to anticipate the school reopen day to see your friends!

You don't have MONTHS of holidays.

You don't have classmates screaming to sing the birthday song to you!

You don't get thrilled when it's 10.25 every day.

You don't have bell ringing.

You don't have assembly.

No negaraku.

Anymore.

Well, we can't expect to stay in form 5 just because you love the things above, we still have to move on.

I am writing this it's just because I don't like the fact that we have to change the way we live in our life. The process of moving on can be a hard task when you love yearning and remembering the past a lot.

And I think I am not an love-to-attend-gathering person. I assume I am not. Because I don't see my brothers and sisters attend gathering ever since they left the school.

LOL.

Passer By II

2011-04-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

Things just get back to normal, and I don't feel want to think or speak about it. I feel that I was a passer-by, went through their life, and then continue carry on my life. Everything back to square one, and that's what I had expected and decided at once when things happened. Delete me. Or maybe forget me. =)

Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror

2011-01-31T01:41:00.011+08:00

Listening to Paramore - brick by boring brick. I want to let you know how awesome is this band.

They make the coolest music in this universe or at least in this world. The greatest and intriguing voice, accentuated with the beautifully written lyrics ever existed by the vocalist of the band - Hayley Williams.

*gasping for air* She is pretty, isn't it?? The roaring red hair makes her peculiarity and that was also why I stopped at the MTV Channel and watched her MV.

The songs are all written by the lead guitarist Josh Farro together with Hayley. I love almost all the songs and I can't pick out which one is my favourite. I simply can't. TT

This is Josh Farro, his younger brother Zac Farro was the drummer in the Paramore. They are Italian. I do think Josh is very cute!!!

"Keep your feet on the ground, when the head's in the clouds"

It's one of the lines in the Brick by boring brick. I didn't understand what it meant until Sam had told me what it was.

It means how much you dream in your life, you still have to stick to the reality, just like having your head in the clouds but remember to keep your feet on the ground.

The first song that I heard from them which is also the reason why I am writing this blog is Brick by boring brick. Sam introduced me this song when I went to her house.

It's just like a sudden outburst of uncontrolled emotion, and afterwards I was busy downloading their songs and singing along with it.

Most of their songs are not really accepted by my friends, because the band's musical style are generally regarded as emo, pop punk.

But I can introduce two songs which are more "soft" and I think you may like it.

The only exception is kinda different from their musical style, and I like the MV too!!

This is Where The Lines Overlapped in ACOUSTIC version, it's ridiculously creative and nice. I love this song very much, it gives me a feeling of getting all attention just to tell you NO ONE IS HAPPY AS US!!!

Recently I was told that the drummer Zac and his elder brother Josh departed from the band.

Seriously? Then who's going to write song??

Paramore has their specialty and one of them is the DRUMMER! They have the most catchy and "exaggerate" drum beats. Their drum beats kinda reminds me of hillsong.

Their departure made us realized how fake was them in the sense of being bond together as a band during the past.

Because before this I was watching videos from Youtube - Paramore Behind Brand New Eyes . It's about the process of writing the songs and lyrics, and the progresses of making this album. Josh and Hayley were talking how grateful and how awesome to be bond as a band.

But the next second I knew was the departure of the brothers from the band.

A few years back, Josh and Hayley were couples!

SO SWEET!!!

But they broke up because firstly they were secretly dating, Josh wanted to go public but Hayley didn't want to. It might influenced the band because people would've seen them together and thought the songs and lyrics were all about them.

Currently Hayley is dating Chad, the guitarist from New Found Glory.

Omg la, Josh is way cooler and at least he doesn't make himself a tattoo freak. HE LOVES HIS SKIN!!

You can take a look on Josh's exit statement to know more. It explains also why their lyrics are so negative and well, I like emo stuff. LOL

I hope they won't find some noobies to replace both of them la...

Maybe I know somewhere, deep in my soul, that love never lasts. We've got to find other ways, to make it alone or keep a straight face. -Paramore-

I say youth says!

2011-01-30T17:42:00.003+08:00

Do you want to see something cool? (lines from Green Hornet XD)

Yea, today I want to introduce something to you! Have you ever heard about Youthsays?

It's a community of Malaysians who choose cool stuff to share on social media and get rewarded with cash, points and prizes!

It's just like nuffnang. You can make banners on your website and when someone click the advertisement you'll earn money.

But the difference is, using youthsays, you can post the advertisement EVERYWHERE! Because they provide you the link, and mostly I'll just post in on facebook, or twitter, sometimes on my blog.

Besides from the advertisement, they also pay you for doing the SURVEYS! RM0.3 per each survey!

Btw, there is another special feature in youthsays, you can earn CP (contribution points). You earn it through answering questions posted on the website or doing polls.

That's not money, but you can use the cp to bet or win things such as concert tickets, ipod nano, or chances to get extreme makeover.

You can turn the valueless cp into valuable prizes! How cool is that?

Go sign up one!! FAST!! WHILE STOCK LAST!!

http://says.my/tinghui/invite

Dream

2011-01-29T09:52:00.004+08:00

I dreamed a super weird dream yesterday, it's so random that when I got up, I laughed non-stop.

Can you imagine someone wake up from her sleep and cannot stop laughing?

There were three parts but I'll just tell you one part.

First, I remember it's all bombs exploding in my house area, and there were still bombs landing here and there.

So Teng Siu (my sister) asked us ( me and Jee Hwa) to pack and rushed into the car which she just bought ---VIVA ( in real life she does own a Viva).

We're worried because we couldn't contact my parents, Jee Hor and Ting Ting as well. But we got to go.

Anyway, we managed to get into the car and Teng Siu drove the car so fast that she banged into everything.

We somehow managed to find a kampung and a house. I don't know how we could do that but it simply happened in my dream.

I was traumatic because things happened too fast and I lost contact to my parents, then I was unconscious for the next few months.

When the time I got up...

Teng Siu owned a McD, and it's so popular that every one goes to her McD. AND SHE SELLS NASI LEMAK IN MCD!

That's all.

Oh yea, at the end I don't know why I saw my mum washing plates in McD.

Piles of homeworks

2011-01-19T22:52:00.004+08:00

I like my Sejarah teacher, Puan Choo so much. She's the first ever history teacher who successfully made my eyes open and mind clear throughout the Sejarah class.

Eh hello? Sejarah leh. The first chapter was talking about the nationalism of the asian countries. She managed to let us to have a urge to know more.

She doesn't really read the text in the text book like what others do, instead she writes her own mind map and geography maps and explain every thing through the maps.

Seriously, I can remember the main point of the 1st bab by just listened to her teachings.

Btw, do you know Aung San is the father of Aung San Suu Kyi?

And Puan Choo is going to take us to watch The King and I which is a movie about the King Mongkut ( this guy is mentioned in the nationalism of Thailand in the text book together with the King Chulalongkorn).

My English teacher, Me Eric. Oh my goodness. His nostrils are so distracting, I have my eyes glued on them when he's talking. How can a human has that big and round nostrils? The way he teaches are also incredibly surprised me.

Every day during his class, we have to read this thing out loud.

"He she is was they you are were bla bla bla...."

Like seriously have to memorize it? And he deeply hopes that we will not going to be the 3D students. Dumb, deaf, and donkey.

Mr ong who is teaching us add maths and maths, makes sure we have heaps and heaps of homework which cannot be done for ages.

Exercise 1.2 (2 to 20), Objective (1 to 10), Subjective (1 to 10)

The Egg Tarts Ambassador Jenny Lau Bee Kean

2011-01-14T12:04:00.002+08:00

I cannot say that 5SC is better or a lot funnier than 4SD. Different person with different style marh...

I'm now sitting with The Egg Tarts Ambassador Jenny Lau Bee Kean. In front of me is The Freak Centaur Chew Sing Hui, beside him is The Cantonese Fail Ling Zi Xian.

Three of them are making me more crazier than ever. Sing Hui is talking about the dirty stuff all the time and he can even relate the Sejarah with porn? Omg la

Jenny is still the shorty who makes me feel taller and her laugh is epic. You can see everyone turn around and look at us whenever she laughs.

Zi Xian?? I wonder how she copes with her long hair when she's in the toilet. Lol. And I'm kinda worry her since she's sitting with Sing Hui. Will she turn into a pornography pro at the end of the year?

Oh no, I can't imagine that a girl touching her long hair while dealing with the porn? Ewww..

I was texting with Jenny Lau Bee Kean just now...

Jenny: Hello my girl... what are you doing?

Me: I'm fascinating with the egg tarts? You're hungry? Wait ten years later when the egg tarts tower is build first la..

Jenny: Shapo! ( she spams the word shapo in the msg) Hahahaha ( she spams the word haha too).. It's funny...oh thanks...i don't like egg tart...and i'm full now...I miss you so I text you :D

Me: Of course you miss me! How can you not miss me? You're born to miss me. You miss me to live. You make a living of missing me. You're totally lifeless without me. I'm kinda feel I'm important to you, next time buy egg tarts for me okay?

Jenny: ==

Haha, sorry for the lameness. Btw, you must be thinking why egg tarts?

Because before this we're talking about which tower is taller in the world and I'm going to build a tower named 蛋塔.

If you still don't understand the joke, then you're epic fail.

BBTTWW, I think of another funny thing happened last year in 4SD.

Miss Ho: " Whose umbrella is it at the back there?"

Me: " Rihanna's."

Class: "=..="

Collision

2011-01-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

For the first week of school reopen, erm, it's still normal and nothing special happens.

It was a chill morning, I went to school at 6.50 a.m. Lol, because I wanted to get a best seat in the class, I couldn't afford to have a seat where I have to stretch my neck like a giraffe to see the white board or the white board reflects light when it's sunny day.

All credits to Centaur Chew Sing Hui who made it for my best-seat-hunting. *applause*

So, the new principal, had his first speech on the assembly. He's so dead strict.

The fringe cannot touch the forehead, if it does, it must not be longer than half of the forehead. ==

Oh btw, he's bald. So he has HIGH FOREHEAD which is almost out of infinity. So he maybe is just jealous seeing us have FRINGE!!

I have 6 tuitions. English, Malay, Biology, Physics, Add Maths and Chemistry. I have tuitions from Monday to Sunday.

Yea, I know it's a lot, and I probably starting to get tired and PONTENG! If I really have to cut off one tuition, it will be English. But I changed my mind when the moment Mr Eric Hong stepped into my class.

Sigh...

Oh yea, I want to mention about The Great Biology Teacher Mr Pang. He can't speak English well and he doesn't know how to pronounce it. Orz

" Spermatozoa produce during the spermatogenesis process. You also can say spermatozoa as sperm. You cannot sperm it wrongly, it's S-P-E-R-M!"

==, notice the wrong word he used??

"Please update your folio cell."

Wth la? What did that supposed to mean?

" All girls' die, but guys' don't die."

???

Btw, I just came back from my chemistry tuition.

" What's the definition of the collision theory?"

" It explains the collision theoretically."

Lol

Seventeen

2011-01-01T23:08:00.005+08:00

Seventeen.

Current.

Seventeen.

Current.

Seventeen.

Current.

Seventeen.

Current.

Seventeen which is current.

FUTURE!!!

UPDATE: Goh Chia Guan said that I look alike with ZHONG JIA XIN!!!

Yiruma sarangyeyo

2010-12-29T14:02:00.005+08:00

School is going to reopen for the next...4 days?

I feel bad this year because my results seemed to be worse and worse and WORSE.

These few weeks I was so busy with my church youth's events that Ive almost forgotten I'm going to be sitting for SPM.

DIES.

I just went to LV for haircut yesterday.

Pey Woei is in holiday until next year February then she'll be in IMU after that.

" I tell you ar ting hui, the holiday is so si gui long, and I can't live without studying even for only one week."

Sigh, I can't live if you ask me to study even for only the one whole week.

I wonder where she got all the passion for study, during helping out at his father shop?

I dye! I cut! I PERM! YAY!!!

==...

By the way, after the tiring Christmas celebration in my church, I'm like so pro in sound editing now. LOL, and because of the drama, I listened to so many classicals.

Maksim is still my favourite. He plays piano, Mozart plays piano too, then why am I loving Maksim only?

Because he's tall and good looking!

Mozart, erm... never seen him before so sorry la mozart, I still love your music!

For those who love listen to piano solo, you should go listen to YIRUMA!

I like his Kiss the rain the most. I remember Jee Hor was playing this song last time by just listened to the song without looking at the music score since he doesn't know how to read it.

So I thought it might be easy because if he could do it why can't I? We're from the same mother's womb, he eats and lives just as the same as mine.

I started to listen to that song a few days ago, night and day, non-STOP.

During the mid night I'll listen in by using earphone.

After the ear-aching of song downloading in my mind, I tried playing it yesterday. I started by catching the key and I FAILED. I gave up, and.....went to google chrome....and... googled YIRUMA KISS THE RAIN MUSIC SHEET DOWNLOAD FOR FREE.

==, and I saw the the key is A flat major? WTH la, so hard to play.

So I went to google Claudine by Maksim. A ha! C major! All white keys!! Then I decided to learn this song.

I hope I won't be giving up in at least for one week la, I'm those kind of "tiger head snake tail" person.

Just in case someday you want to listen to classical or piano solo song but you don't know which one is nice, take a look at my favourite song list down there.

Yiruma: Kiss the rain, River flows in you [ this song appears in twilight movie ( bella lullaby)], If i could see you again.

Claudine, Grieg's piano concerto A minor, The flight of bumble bee, Rhapsody on a theme of paganini, Chopin's revolutionary etude in C minor, Dance of the baroness, Canon in D, moonlight sonata.

“I’m Christian, and I am not a New-age artist". Most people misunderstand me.” - Yiruma

End world hunger

2010-12-06T23:51:00.003+08:00

What would you do when you know that 15 million children die of hunger every year?

How do you feel when you understand that every 3.6 seconds someone dies of hunger? Oh yea you just spent 133 lives of starving people in front of the facebook per day.( i assume that)

You will mourn at in front of your computer and forget about it just after that?

You can actually make their life better. Way better.

By....... playing quiz!

I've found out a site where you can actually feed them by donating grains of rice. The main point is YOU DON'T HAVE TO SPEND A SEN.

For each right answer you get through the quiz, 10 grains of rice will be donated through the World Food Programme to starving people around the world. The more right answers you get, the more rice you will provide to starving people.

It's just a simple vocabulary quiz. Can you imagine that? You are actually learn vocabulary (as the level increases) while having fun and you are KEEPING THOSE MALNOURISHED CHILDREN ALIVE.

Here is the link ==> http://malaysia.youthsays.com/tinghui/freerice

Shandi Sullivan

2010-12-02T23:48:00.003+08:00

I've been watching America's Next Top Model since last week. There are altogether 15 cycles and the current cycle which still airing in America is the Cycle 15. I am watching Cycle 7 right now.

The Cycle 1 first aired at 2003. It's like 7 years ago and the way they wear clothes were very ugly, but amazingly, their high fashion photo shoot or whatever fashion was that, were still edgy for me and you probably won't be seeing people in Malaysia wearing like that.

Omaigosh la, their fashion was like YEARS beyond us. But you can't blame this on Malaysian actually, because the major race in our country is Muslim, and they wear tudungs and baju kurung, how fashionable it can be?

Anyway, the first two cycles were my favourite of all cycles I'd watched. Every episodes were so interesting especially when Shandi Sullivan ( Cycle 2) cheated on her boyfriend and she actually told her bf about having sex with another male model in the bathtub.

I watched Cycle 2 before when I was in standard 4 or 5. I don't remember a thing about it until I saw Shandi crying and begging for forgiveness on her phone talk with her bf. Awwww, it's so sad and I actually cried watching that. Shandi was a clerk and she's SO SO SO NERDY before taking part in that show.

Elyse Sewell was also the stunning one. I don't understand why judges eliminated her and leaving her in 3rd place. Can't even make it to top 2? Her photo shoots were so amazing as her runway walk. The most ironic thing is, she's more successful than the winner now because she's INTERNATIONAL supermodel. LOL.

One of the interesting part of the show is, they actually badmouthed about other girls and rant during behind the scene. The most notable rant in the show was Elyse Sewell. I laughed so hard! And believe it or not, I vow not to step into the modelling industry after watching America's Next Top Model.

LOL. And by the way, the height of 168-170cm is SHORT for them in modelling industry. You simply can't wear those high fashion or couture ( clothes which you think is odd and futuristic).

Their average shoe size is like 9/10/11?? And I hardly find my shoe size here. My shoe size is 8 or 9 and that's why I don't like buying shoes or sandals at HERE. I hunch a bit when talking to my friends while standing or sitting. I hunch when I'm taking shower because the shower thingy is so low in my house. I hunch when I'm looking in the mirror. I hunch when I'm in my current HEIGHT.

My height could be so rare in asian that everyone looks at me as freak. Last time when I was in the hillsong concert, there's a girl standing behind me. She almost yelled to her friends and saying:" The girl in front me is so friggin tall!"

Helo? What's your problem?

And of course, girls with this height are not that popular and kawaii for guys.

I have enough of all this, and someday I'll learn speaking english and get outta Malaysia.

wonderwall

2010-11-25T12:27:00.002+08:00

自从梁非凡的鼻梁上顶着那又圆又黑的墨镜，在排骨、杨阳和等人面前赏了擦鞋仔三巴掌后，我开始对这部戏改观。因为它的情节开始越来越难以predict。

如果你还不知道我在讲什么，你就是很outdate啦！

我在讲的是巾帼枭雄之义海豪情香港TVB台庆剧。

蛤？什么是香港TVB台庆剧？？

OH NO!你真得很outdate啦。。自己去google

这部戏呢，我可以很肯定日本人看了后会很懊恼，因为连我看了这部剧后，不想再踏入日本。

虽然戏剧的内容可能是虚构，但是怎么说都好少许都会使到身为观众的我变得很入戏。之前我在pps看了一部纪录片关于南京大屠杀。

如果你不知道南京大屠杀是啥，那你就很outdate啦，呃。。。。不，应该说是很update，update到历史都忘光啦！

南京大屠杀就是当年日本攻打中国时所进行的残忍行为和大开无理头的杀戒。他们随意强奸妇女，随意冲入屋子抓人，随意杀人。在戏中，我觉得剧组还不至于把日本人形容得那么那么的残忍，因为里头的向山达也帮了九姑娘。

我觉得这部比公主嫁到好多了。公主嫁到前面看了后觉得很无聊，但朋友说后面很好看wor。。。

至于刑警，也是其中一部台庆剧。我看了前面的10集，就放弃了。因为真的很typical，很容易predict 到后面发生什么事情。至于黄日华，我觉得他演戏很。。。。奇怪。我不知道形容他的感觉是什么，感觉他好像在背东西，因为他有时候的语调很慢节奏很constant，苗侨伟却正常多了。

我一直都很喜欢香港tvb的警匪戏，尤其是陀枪师姐。陀枪师姐简直是epic之作，到现在我都还记得想当年我姐姐每个星期去租片来看，那份紧张又刺激随着剧情变化的日子。

其中的有一个case到了现在我都还记得。就是关于人格分裂症的有一个男生。他是个智障，也是一个记者，也是一个杀人凶手，到后来演变出更多的人格。

怎么说都好，自从看了Fringe后，我不再对香港连戏剧存着那一份热诚。但是有许多我的朋友连碰都不想碰，== 。

fringe 是一部异想天开的tv series。它综合了各种的科学以及有待证实的facts. Parallel universe, passing through walls, 和等等。。

我现在很无聊，因为streamyx迟迟不能connect。

我生灰尘，生到满身都是

2010-11-24T19:04:00.003+08:00

最近，我觉得我的生活很像独居老人。每天一个人在家，不是对着电脑，就是对着电脑。变得好乏味。

已经有好几个星期没有胃口吃东西，而且我觉得我的动作越来越慢，简直是不想动。

从上一次的大考后，我的掉发问题没有逐渐减少。而且冲凉出来后，身上出现红斑，痒痒的。

最近也有好几次胃痛，而且痛了好几天。

当时，我以为我得了绝症。TT，我还很年轻叻！

所以我妈就带我去她朋友那里做个检验。她说不需要blood test ，你只需要握着 two metal rods 而通过一个机器来检验你身上的每一个部分。

虽然没有clinic那种身体检验来得准确，但大概能检验你身上的毛病。

那一个玩意儿听说非常非常的昂贵。

为了我的生命，所以我就去了。

而检验出来，整体来说都很烂，甚至比我妈的还烂。而且我有zinc deficiency，那么就可以解释我为什么会掉发和等等的问题。

可是我妈每天像灌药般让我吃上很多保健品，应该不成问题啊！

那检验显示我的小肠吸收能力重度严重。。==，酱那些保健品不是很浪费咯？

我妈这几天不再灌我药，而给我喝一种助于吸收能力的豆奶。渐渐的，我开始不再对我妈煮的食物感到反胃，虽然我之所以会反胃的一小部分原因是因为食物本质的问题。

我还记得当我肚子饿得那一刻，是多么的激动，因为从那一次那伤身的大考后，我肚子饿的次数一直减少直到我最近觉得很反胃。

今天，当我告诉我妈早上我吃了清汤面和喝豆奶，而且在短短的时间内又吃了一盘炒饭后，从她的眼神我能说她是感到多么的成就感。。。okay，我承认是我夸大了一点，但显然得她是感到很放心。

在那一次神奇的检验的时候，我忘了哪一个部分也是显得不是很乐观，我妈的朋友就告诉她可能是因为迟睡的关系。

我妈：“你昨天几点睡？”

我：“两点。”

我妈：“我在问你晚上的时候，不是睡午觉的时候。”

我：“Erm。。。。。。。两点”

自从那一次的事件后，现在每晚11点钟，我必须要回房睡觉，我妈并没有妥协的余地。

搞得我早上7.30就醒了。刚才在车上她说：“早睡早起的感觉是不是很好叻！”

刚才我去sammy的家，跟她借了三本书 Beautiful Creatures, A Prisoner of Birth and Evermore。我告诉她我在家闷到竟然又读了已经读了第三遍的new moon，她简直是发狂似的（她觉得new moon 很无聊），塞了三本书给我，命令我必须看完。

到现在我还是不知道她在激动什么。。

昨晚，我差一点做了很tarok的事情。我妈叫我send msg给我教会青少年的阿头，本来信息的内容应该是酱的：

Tomorrow cell group fasting prayer will be in bla bla bla, and you are going to in charge in bla bla bla, by your beloved cell group leader.

而我竟然screw up，变成酱：

Tomorrow cell group farting prayer will be in bla bla bla, and you are going to in charge in bla bla bla, by you beloved cell group leader.

我只是差那0.0001秒就send了，感谢主，我没有send到。如果send了，我应该被罚晚上8.00睡觉了吧。。。

你也许觉得为什么我迟迟不做结尾赶快结束这无聊的文章，因为这文章的性质和我一样----无聊。你就容许我继续写下去吧。。

从昨天开始，我家的streamyx很不稳定，隔几分钟就disconnect，好像在引诱我灌火水在TMpoint 。C'mon，现在是假期叻！

所以你不可以怪我正在写这一篇无聊的文章，因为这是唯一不需要上网就可以轻松写，虽然下面一直出现 cannot save your draft please contact blogger and bla bla bla....

好啦，不再折磨你们了，谢谢观赏！

回顾之十六篇

2010-11-20T14:11:00.006+08:00

每一年，我都为我一整年所发生的事情做个终结。说真的，2010年是我经历过最多变化和改变的一年。

我很讨厌变化。

一旦习惯了一切后，变化带来不安和失落感。但是人生没变化。。。。我们现在应该是猴子吧？

今年，变化最大的是我的家庭，因为我多了两位姐夫。姐姐们嫁了出去后，最可笑的是竟然有很多人问我几时轮到我结婚？==

十年后的事情，现在开始盘问我会不会太早了一点？而且十年后，谁会在乎我结婚了没啊，应该是关心着又没有达成wawasan 2020吧？

最近二姐刚办了婚礼，我告诉你们，家人结婚是个很累的事情，而每次我想到我还有大姐和哥哥们的婚礼，我就已经觉得很累人了。我想轮到我的时候，应该都不想办婚礼了吧。。

今年也是我第一年接触到spm的科目。

很讨厌啦，因为今年的成绩是我一生中拿过最烂的成绩。50分的也有，60分的也有，70分的也有，80分的也有.....

再加上明年我跌班了。。。。TT

今年的新年伟朕出车祸。朋友出车祸对我来说是个很新鲜的事情，本来以为可以去买水果或是buah tangan 去医院探望他，但原来他在怡保医院住院，死鬼远咯。。

最近家里显得清静得许多，比起以前必须要6点起床抢厕所演变成现在我在厕所对着镜子傻笑半个钟都没人理你，说真得很可悲。

从今年年头我想要读些什么，到了现在年尾假期都还没想到。家人建议我去读律师，哈哈，想到自己在大庭广众讲话，我的脸就会涨红。而且背酱多的东西，我不晓得自己行不行。

唉，现在我只是希望人间有情，明年SPM出题的老师们可以大发慈悲。　

BTW，最近不知道为什么我就是提不起劲来，是什么问题啊？

Innocence only lasts for the last summer time.

2010-10-29T17:54:00.004+08:00

YO GUYS!!

The examination is officially over! I didn't even feel that HAPPY after the PMR last time, because PMR it's like 5 days only.

And form 4 year-end exam lasts for 2 weeeks ++++

It's almost HALF a month already, and the last time I sleep at before 12 is a history in my life.

So now my eyes are panda-like. *Screw you!*

But if I study two months earlier, I wouldn't have to burn the midnight oil, because burning release carbon dioxide, use up oxygen and it's freakin tired!!

I simply can't be a disciplined student.

Do Mrs Tan hw just after her tuition. Instead, I went to sleep or Facebook.

Study Sejarah the day BEFORE sejarah lesson. Instead, I went to watch TV or Facebook.

Do add maths exercise consistently as if I will die if I don't do it. Instead, I COPY it.

I must admit something.

I'm a lazy student. I study at the ELEVENTH hour or even later during the examination.

Is there any remedy for the laziness?

Yea, the remedy is being not ting-hui-ish.

Whatever la, as long as these two months i dun have to be so tension. Do you know I have serious hair fall problem during the exam, so stressss la.

Especially when I was studying chemistry and physics, it's not like you do a lot of exercise or memorise the whole paragraph then you will understand. I hate it like that.

Understanding part is still not the major stumbling block for me, the most ugliest thing is staying focus....focus....and FOCUS.

I did 40 sit-ups whenever my brain stops functioning. Seriously, when I say my brain can't function anymore I mean it. It's like I can't even solve the simple thing.

Btw, sit-ups don't work. LOL.

Quote of the day * Last-minute-study is all about the freshness of knowledge, but fresh thing doesn't last long, so better apply the preserve way in your study!....*

中学~

2010-10-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

宁静的午后，妈妈在洗衣服的重复声音，哥哥在隔壁房把音乐调到最高音量。

一个人躲在房间啃书，累了吃妈妈的红豆汤充电。

妈妈带着满意的笑容，经过我的旁边，身上散发出葱味和洗衣粉的杂味，默契提醒我说妈妈做了一整天的家务。

“加油！啃多一些书，就可以弥补不做家务的罪恶感”

晚上熬夜，有着和我同房睡觉的姐姐陪伴我度过漫长的夜晚。也许她的陪伴也只是睡觉，但是她总会在半夜时。。。

“OI，还不睡觉？”

“等下先啦，我快要读完了。。”

我喜欢她的OI，因为够亲切!

早上上课，6.30的早晨，一片灰蓝的天空，小鸡啼叫声，冲凉完后而冷到的刺激，穿上校服打上领带，找了十分钟的白袜----这一些，只有早上上学时能体会到的。

我喜欢背着书包在学校走了的感觉。

阳光斜斜地打在我的肩膀，互相打招呼的热诚。。。

“老师早安！”

“婷慧，你的报纸拿了没？”

“班长，等下先！！！我还没有抄完！！”

“慧敏，扫地。。。。”

“记得带班费么明天”

“Yiyeeerrrr，你有抽屉放书。*羡慕* ”

我想，我会很不舍得这一切。。。TT

哦买尬！

2010-09-10T16:09:00.004+08:00

放假了，那种堕落且在电脑面前消遣人生的生活又开始了。

我想到目前为止，做过最有意义的事情是做Mrs Tan的功课。

哎，放假真让我又爱有恨。。。

再过一个月，就要考试了。上百个的Experiment等着我把它们塞进我巧而小的脑，还有像 Top洗衣粉般的 Sejarah 想洗我的脑，想得美！还有和我没缘份的Physics和等等的科目。。。哦买尬！

此刻，我需要的是动力和意志力。

最好是读几个钟头的书仍然好像在玩Facebook般轻松。

如果Facebook是其中的科目，我想我应该在很多人眼中是“kiasu”的人了咯。。

LOL。。。

祝大家新年快乐。。。

你一定再想为什么是新年快乐？

我也不知道，LOL...

突击检查

2010-08-10T16:36:00.003+08:00

今天最劲爆的事情就是在我的学校Spot Check。我一直以来对此事没什么看法，可今天他们的态度真得有点让很多人不爽。

我先说我班的。

首先，小扁一进来，没把我班的杜老师放在眼里就大骂人。小扁一进来就叫我们站起来，印象中他好像连和老师请个安或述说到底发生什么事情的举动都没有。我班的男同学只不过贪玩的说：“站起来？唱国歌是么？”

他就大骂说：

“你们这班是4SDleh，你们以为是4VA啊？！那位男生有种就出来说一遍你刚刚讲的东西！连基本礼貌尊重人都不会！”

那么，他的意思是不是4va的人就不会尊重人吗？

连我班的老师都还没有教训那位男同学，他凭他是台湾当今贪污首相吗?

再来，当他在搜有位女同学的书包时，全班的人都起哄。废话！当然起哄啦，女生的书包当然是由女巡查员搜查啦！他难道一点意识都没有吗？大多女生会带卫生棉到学校，如果女生知道有男生搜查过她的书包，一定会尴尬到不行。

可小扁不这样认为，他在那边大喊说：

“So What??!! It's just a small piece~~ 你们的头脑可以不可以不要那么古板吗？？”

Piece 你的头啦！英文不会讲又爱讲，你被抓去关监牢，台湾真的很peace啦！

接着，就是学记的相机被没收。他的相机被没收，我没话可说，因为有时他的相机在学校有另用途。

可是在向他索取他的相机的那位巡查员的态度欠佳。一开始就没有人要和她吵架的意思，可是开口闭口就在那里用骂人的语气和那位学记讲话。

我并不是从鸡蛋里挑骨头，但至少memory card 还给他吧？手机被没收都可以拿回sim card，但那位学记和他拿回她又不给。

只记得她很理直气壮地说：

“Madam XXX说，条规上有哪一条文说学记可以带相机？”

试问，哪一条文说学记不可以带相机啊？

接着，听说有一部分AJK有没收liquid，有一部分没有。

这是什么东西？？是在试我们的忍耐度吗？可不可以做东西可以统一一点吗？这班有收，那班又没有收？？

再接着，我还亲眼看到有AJK从自己的铅笔盒拿掉一些东西。

我还是觉得搜查我们的巡查员应该由老师择日突击检查他们。

还是不说啦，等下不知道哪一个老师又看到。。

Plain

2010-08-04T18:03:00.003+08:00

Hey guys!

It's been a while since the last time I updated my blog.

I'm going to be very busy for the following weeks.

It's all about lisan and oral test this week which means a lot of memorizing work have to be done.

I'm going to Ipoh next Wednesday where I can meet with the Hillsong, and enjoying moments with my friends at the Ipoh Parade. Uh, I just can't wait for that day!!

And I'm praying I won't have any stomach ache or losing money things to be happened.

Thursday I'm participating a competition. It's a drawing and colouring on a flag competition. The theme will be something like I-love-Malaysia or satu Malaysia. Because this month is the patriotic month. So, that means there will be tons of competition related with patriotism.

Everyone knows how not patriotic I am, haha.

Well, I'm form 4, next year surely I won't be taking part on such activities.

Then Saturday I'm going to KL for my aunt's wedding.

Oh yea, I'm reading Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code. I heard someone told me that's a wash-brain novel for the Christian. I don't think I'm so weak and vulnerable that I would be trusting Jesus was actually married to Mary Magdalene after reading the novel.

And this book is very difficult for me to understand.

I have my dictionary with me all the time when reading this book. Don't laugh, I'm learning English okay??

Oh yea, I just got into Scrabble final. LOL... That would be amusing during the final.

Definition of happiness

2010-08-01T22:12:00.008+08:00

Today, I feel extremely happy.

Enjoying the moments with my friends, and smiling by just looking at them..

Looking at the blue sky, thinking that I might looking at God.

Feel what we had last time. Appreciate it all over again..

Sorrows and burdens are taken away, make yourself a little bit more lighter. Just like the balloons.

Hang Tuah

2010-07-29T20:28:00.002+08:00

I've just heard a shockingly news. The malay hero hang tuah was actually a CHINESE!!

The hangs' were being assigned to protect Parameswara who asked the Ching Dynasty for protection.

The hangs' were just some protector for the ungrateful king Parameswara.

AND

Researches hired by our government found out the oldest tomb in Kelantan which is far more older than the so-called batu bersurat . Surprisingly it's belong to Chinese and it's 900 years old.

Being landed first in Malacca doesnt mean malay is the first in Malaysia because during that time, the road to the other side of the coast is too long for them where the chinese has landed far more earlier!!!

http://www.usj.com.my/bulletin/upload/showthread.php?t=5986

一定要叫“老师”meh? 不能“美女师”么？

2010-07-28T21:17:00.004+08:00

最近，我都一直在想我的前途啊。

我有在考虑要不要当老师，因为妈妈说我很适合当老师。

可是最近我班的老师都很凶，一直都在骂人。千篇一律地说：“你是好班的，怎么可以这样。。。。” 当然不是在骂我啦，我已经金盆洗手很久了，就改过知心的意思啦。

所以，当老师的念头，有点“摇摇欲坠”。

从小到大，我也都很想当辅导老师，一直到很想要了解坏学生的心情。我曾经看过一本书籍，述说一位辅导老师说辅导过的case。

每一位人的性格和态度并不是天生的，而是因为家庭背景的因素。他们也许很坏，但曾经拥有的单纯心灵是不会改变的，只要教导他们，了解他们。

可是最近有一位辅导老师在我的班代体育节的课，又要忙top ten 的trip。那是辅导老师该做的meh? 学校的庆典，需要布置，我就会看到很多辅导老师很忙，颁奖典礼也一样。

没有老师要做的话，就是他们顶上去。

不好当啦。。。

昨晚我妈告诉我最近又一直呆在电脑前面。

我说我很懒惰读书，不如嫁人算啦？

她说：“你会有人要meh？叫你收个衣服，很大阵状leh。”

不用紧，我会cpr吗。。。

周记

2010-07-25T20:42:00.007+08:00

我写blog也已经有3年7个月了。

还记得我的第一篇blog吗？那篇《别问我是谁》其实是一篇我的真人真事的故事。哈哈，那时有一段时间真得很不开心。但那一篇也是那一年唯一的一篇，哈哈！

一直以来，我对我所写的都感到很值得被记载下来，让我再次回忆。但我也写了很多炸人的东西。有时候冲动起来，真的会做了很多伤人的事情，所以后来看了也觉得自己好无聊。

有很多人都不知道，其实我想写blog的时候，都是因为突然脑海中浮现一些句子。

就好像刚刚下午正和家人on the way去吃午餐的时候，在车上，就想到这么一句话。

“在黑暗的寂寞里，我深深地把你想一遍，让忧伤透过眼泪渗透我的脸颊。”

ps: 我没有再想任何人啦，就单纯会有这样的灵感。

所以，我会用电话写下后，回家赶快写咯。可是有很多人以为我是从小说里抄出来的，哈哈。我是个感情超超超超丰富的人，所以我可以很好笑，很无聊，很废，也很忧郁。

就极端的意思啦！

今天下午正在听周杰伦的夜曲时候，又有这么一句话出现在我的脑中。

“就像我的思念一样，在月光下蒸发，和夜风缓缓离开。”

ps: 形容一个人在夜晚思念人的时候。

我写过有很多东西都是在我喝milo，上厕所，冲凉，听歌，在车上（这个很时常），在考试的时候。。等等

我的帆船破洞了

“犹记那年的幽幽琴声，我在很努力地了解其中的自由。岁月却忍心离开，我后悔当时的决定，当时沉默的决定。如今却才发现来不及，已经太迟了。”

ps: 这是在很多年前的有一次争扎，不知道应该不应该在教会服侍弹钢琴。到了今天我还是耿耿于怀着。

加油，同学们！

不停地怀念过去的悠闲，却不知情未来的哪一刻又是在怀念曾经失去的当下。到头来，什么都没得到，不停地错过。

ps: 正在听刘子贤的信息时。。

你懂我意思吗？

那按快门后的亮光，久久不能从我的眼睛消失。突然让我想起这么一句话，你的笑容在我的脑海中，浑散不去。

ps: 这一篇的blog是在那一段的时候，所累积的感想。一半也是因为看了很多小说，所以特别有感觉。

Aiyah，总之，最近开始我就会开始把我在进行日常生活时，突然蹦出来的句子和大家分享。一般也是因为，我想记载下来，不想失去任何一部分的记忆。

Maslinda的作文写不完哪~~~~~~~~~

Thousand-in-thousand

2010-07-24T18:32:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was BSMM teamwork competition. One year had passed since the last time teamwork competition. Click here to recall the previous teamwork competition.

This year was the last year for me to take part in this competition, I feel more enjoy than nervous during the competition.

I'm glad I know how to do CPR, so that next time when a hunk or cool guy drowned in the swimming pool or anywhere ( just like the drama scene), I can save him, then end up married with him. LOL!!

Back to the topic. Erm, last year the accident scene was at the school field near the basketball court and under the two big trees there. Xiao Hua was the mangsa 4 ( mangsa whom we apply cpr). There was no prob for him to become the mangsa, but it's terror when he was lying in the car during the accident scene. So, yesterday before my group's turn, there were still some Xiao Hua's terror aftermath. Some group member started to discuss how they were tortured when carrying him.

LOL. You know la, he's quite "chubby"...

This year, the accident scene was at 4SD class (LOL, don't know wether Chow Juan text books got kena the fake blood or not) . Whoever thought of the accident scene is quite creative lo~

First of all, the mangsa 4 ( Samuel) was a person who commited suicide by hanging himself near chow juan's place. But 4SD class was locked purposely from inside by Ching Liang ( I dunno which mangsa she was), you had to open the door by advising her. I think she was suffering shock or what.

You cannot save Ching Liang and Samuel in the class, because the class which was a house, was full of smoke (story line). You got to bring them to the outside unless you and the mangsa would die caused by the heavy smoke.

Samuel is quite heavy lo... But my ketua and I ( both are girls and very skinny that type mehhhhhhh~) managed to carry him to outside.

So I start to apply CPR on him. SO MANY DISTRACTIONS from the bekas la~

Especially ah bao jie, she keeps on telling others the lame mistake I made last time. ==

We usually have to shout "ARE YOU OKAY" at both his ears and nudge the mangsa. Then seek attention and help by shouting HELP! HELP to the surroundings. The lame mistake I made was I shouted "Are You Okay" to the surroundings and HELP at the mangsa ears.

So back to the accident scene.

I managed to save his life back but he was still unconscious. Due to the ambulance had reached quite a long time, I got to send him to the ambulance before it went away instead of making him in the meniarap tiga suku position.

Have to carry him again.. =="

Well, as usual my muscles ache like never happen before.

The marching competition is around the corner. =,=

Got to go to school like the past weeks.

Bye, gonna do karangan lo....

我的帆船破洞了

2010-07-24T09:03:00.001+08:00

犹记那年的幽幽琴声，我在很努力地了解其中的自由。岁月却忍心离开，我后悔当时的决定，当时沉默的决定。如今却才发现来不及，已经太迟了。

过了三年，才决定在教会服侍。如今，在这里的时候也不多了。

我在犹豫，是不是应该继续留在这读中六，一方是因为我对未来的去向没有把握的决定，一方我真得很想留下。

我没有方向，没有梦想。有的话，都是异想天开的那一种。

什么画家啦，摄影师，作家。。。。

甚至朋友叫我去当谐星，想想，其实也没什么不好啦。。==

在海浪漂泊已久，无掌舵的船只，没有去向也没有方向。累了，也只能一直向前，因为没法停下来。所以说，一个人可以堕落，但不可以没有梦想，因为会很累。

是不是把扑满打破了，梦想就会实现？

问题是，啥是我的扑满？

还是我继续在海浪漂泊，乘着海风，等待我的贵人出现，然后。。。。。。。。。。嫁人算了，哈哈哈哈哈。

煎个蛋要三百年，还是算了。

我我我我我我我我我我我还是听周杰伦的歌到老算啦。（正在听霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍元甲）

希望掠过天边，我想我知道应该怎么做了。祷告。

如果有一天在海上迷路了，你应该会碰到我，记得跟我say hi!

知之为知之，不知为不止，是知也。

2010-07-21T14:51:00.004+08:00

今天，本姑娘要谈一谈现今青少年的疯狂。

说到青少年，现在谈恋爱的普遍到好像吃干捞面一样。

你一定在想和干捞面有什么关系？

那不是重点。

谈恋爱其实没有问题，人总会有感情嘛。。

问题却变到很大，当青少年谈恋爱的目的非凡。

我不知道从那里听到说，有一对情侣（中学生）在我的学校的某一个课室做哪一个东西（understood) ，不小心让 jaga 听到。==

他们真的好无聊也，那时是下午班上课的时候，你可以想象课室外有很多学生走动和吵闹声，甚至还有我学校那么泄气的钟声来当伴乐。可能远方的课室还传来- 起立，行礼，老师午安的声音。

还有，听说有一对情侣随着学校学会的trip去云顶，他们住在同一间房。

本来，单纯的我以为他们也许只是谈心事。

事实却没那么简单。

有一位同学，好像不小心看到那男同学去买 french cap。（自己google)

夜深的时候，还有人去敲他们的房间，男同学只露出他的头，不愿意开门给他们。

当然，这两则故事有待证实。

最近，刚考完试，听到有一些学生作弊。

我在考试期间，牺牲了下午和晚上的睡眠，牺牲了上网的时间，牺牲了父母的金钱买了一大堆作业。而这些作弊的同学，却可以那么轻松的考试。重点是，他们的成绩和我差不多一样。

每个人都必须要为自己的过犯负责任。没有付出心血的考试，你理所当然的要硬着头皮拿那不好的成绩。

有同学在考Bio的时候，直接拿了bio书出来看。

有同学在考Moral的时候，直接拿了Nilai list出来抄。

考试带手机来学校，和朋友sms讨论答案。

而这些都是来自SCIENCE班。

我不明白，不明白为什么他们可以做弊做得那么理所当然。而我却读bio读到抓头发，读physics读到要崩溃了，背nilai背到差点要写facebook 的 email 给najib。

其实，也都已经十六岁了。你也许需要的是到火堆里烧一烧，让自己“成熟”一些，或是你需要的是一面墙壁，让自己面壁思过，必要时去撞墙。==

越说越气，不说了。

加油，同学们！

2010-07-17T11:49:00.002+08:00

枯叶伤感地、写意地随风飘，深深地意表着时间的流逝。

我努力的张开双手拥抱未来，却不知道何时的努力变得好吃力。

不停地怀念过去的悠闲，却不知情未来的哪一刻又是在怀念曾经失去的当下。到头来，什么都没得到，不停地错过。

昨天，前ntv7主播刘子贤到我的学校和我们谈人生。他的重点不多，因为时间不足。

他曾经患癌在死亡的边缘徘徊着，后来成功逃出魔掌。以不同的角度看待人生的他，教我们如何活得有意义------活在当下。

我不知道为什么在这年头，我变得很喜欢说人生大道理，也许在不同的人生阶段，会有不一样的感慨吧。。。

最近，都在忙着应付考试。

上课、听课、下课、补习、功课、熬夜应付考试。

这样的生活，可能我还不了解其中的那踏实的乐趣。

不过，我将会怀念这一切。

这是不知道在那一位大学生的blog所了解到的东西。

最后跟你们分享好笑的事情。

我二姐知道我一直都有上文学课，所以想了解一些中国文学的东西。

我告诉她什么是唐诗宋词元曲，过后我又问她又没有听过唐诗三百首吗？

她告诉我：“噢，唐诗三百首这我知道，唐伯虎写的吗。。” ==

Sneeeeeeeeeeze

2010-07-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

I'm ill.

Sore throat, then fever, then ha qiu, then cough.

During the exam today, I had fever. I dread sitting the exam especially bm paper. Uh, peningnya.

Btw, good news.

My cousin is pregnant!!!!!! 6 weeks plus only.

I can't believe I'm gonna become Auntie already leh.

Waiting for the arrival of the baby... =>

Next Tuesday got exam again.

Chemistry - Electrochemistry

Biology - Nutrition

Pm - one bidang

English - dunno

Addmaths - Loci and Statistics

And I have only one week time to study. ==

Sigh, bye bye lo.

这篇是被激而写的 =,=

2010-07-05T14:45:00.006+08:00

1) 如果有一天，你的男友在外头胡搞，你选择：

A）赏他一巴掌后，头也不会地离开他。

B）想办法侮辱那个狐狸精。

C）继续和他在一起，再想办法伤害他。

D）原谅他，以睁一只眼和闭一只眼的方式来包容他接下来的同样错误。

以上这情况，当然不是发生在我的身上。没错！就是发生在之前我不断提起的Faker和那不断在部落格暗讽我的女生。很多人不知道此事，在发生的当天我就已经向那女孩道歉，原因是我臭骂了她的男友。毕竟，我对他说了很多伤人的话。

道歉是应该的。

可惜，好像那女孩不接受。她说她不需要人家的话来经营属于她和他的爱情。

回归以上的那道问题，若是你，你选择什么？很明显的，她选择了D。

对于她的这选择，我不断的思考，她对他的爱，到底离题了没？这还是爱情吗？

最后，我想通了，这的确是出自于她的爱，只不过，她要的是轰轰烈烈地谈一场恋爱而并不是在道德观念上是否成立的爱情。

甚至，纯粹得他只是她的男朋友，和她SMS到达三百封的男朋友，和她去看Karate Kid的男朋友。不在乎他是否在外头对别的女生说了与她分手的这件事。

你伤害的是自己。

不过当你晓得，在你身旁的那一位，将是陪伴你到老兼照顾你下半身兼隔天将会与你结婚的伴侣，你是否还会选择D?

唉。。我想她现在应该是把我看成破坏他们之间感情的鸡婆。还有那自恋到不行（曾经因为误会我喜欢他而以为伤害了我只因为我再msn放了周杰伦的歌词）的faker，一定又以为我妒嫉他或是我喜欢他。=="

“只有当你站在未来的角度看着现在的自己，你会觉得很不解现在的无耻和冲动。我不会怪你不明白我对你所说的那番话，只能说我说得太早，所以你不了解。有谁会想要知道真相？宁愿相信自己幻想的梦，都不愿相信发生在你眼前的事情。”

这是事情发生后的那一天，我想对她说的话，但却被一封道歉email代替了。

无论如何，现在看你们又恢复以前那模样，我感到很幸运因为没当上千古罪人。

身为女生的我，希望你能别在伤害自己的幸福。

你懂我意思吗？

2010-07-04T21:37:00.004+08:00

王菲的旋木，越听越有韵味，越有感觉。

橘子的爱情小说，激动得说不出来的爱情，脸上忧郁的表情，手上时常拿根烟的女主角，黑色幽默。这是我对她的小说的感觉。

九把刀的等一个人咖啡，读了后，最让我深刻印象的是肯亚咖啡。

肯亚这地方，一直让我觉得是个穷人的王国兼小孩的肚子和脑袋都是大大的兼秃鹰与面临死亡的小孩的地方。如此让我轻易施舍我的同情的地方。

肯雅咖啡。我还是搞不懂这和爱情故事有什么关联，但却让我感到深刻。

我在有一次拍照后，那按快门后的亮光，久久不能从我的眼睛消失。突然让我想起这么一句话，你的笑容在我的脑海中，浑散不去。

沉溺在自己的忧伤世界，久久出不来，宁愿选择留恋不放手，没有什么是永虽不朽，爱情也是一样。我不是在说我，只是发现一些人需要的不是忧伤的歌曲和歌词，需要的是放手。

在车上，风景都看透了，却没有一幕是深刻的，真让我感到可悲。一幕幕正等待我发觉的风景从我眼前划过，却留不住我的心。反而，那乖乖地伫立在马路旁的灯柱，却让我感动，它们永远在人的眼中是那么的无聊。无聊的外观，无聊的姿态，无聊的生命。却没发觉到它们正享受着原地奔跑的忧伤。

人类，永远都在抢戏，试着当一个抢眼的人，就像是那风景。

灯柱，无聊，却很有戏。

band 仔

2010-06-30T18:42:00.002+08:00

从今年开始，我就和一班没头没脑的band仔（他们称他们自己酱的）同班。

去年的时候，听说3L(band的班)有同学在PMR做弊，所以对他们没什么好印象。

不过，到了今年的七月，我只能说他们真的是很GENG!!

他们读书和做功课的时间比我们少很很很很很多，可是他们仍然是那么的厉害。

但这不是重点，重点是他们热爱音乐，把南华国中的乐队搞得有声有色。~拍掌~

今年的Top One非垠佑（band仔）莫属。

讲到成绩，我想我这四年吃的饭应该吐出来了，白吃！！

站岗的辛酸

2010-06-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

其实为什么我会当上巡查员，我也不知道。我记得宇尉告诉我，我的存在在巡查员团体里只不过只是多了一个戴着领带却只会站在自己的岗位站着的那一个巡查员，简单的来说，我是多余的。

几hurt一下咯，害我到现在还记着。

但是上了上午班后，我发觉到我的胆量可能被朋友激发出来后，慢慢再也不是那多余的巡查员了。可是，有时候我就是心太软，哈哈！早上站在Exit Gate站了整20分钟，从7.10分站到7.30，而我的工作是在7.30后抄下迟到的学生，那20分钟在那边做阿呆。

通常迟到的都是走路来学校的学生，而非常对不起的说，我从来没抄他们的名。因为通常在打钟后的那一刻，他们冲着进来学校。而在7.35之前，jaga 就已经把Exit Gate锁上。

In conclusion，我站了25分钟的时间，只有5分钟时间是有意义的。==

Random

2010-06-20T21:20:00.005+08:00

*This is a long post. I'm not responsible for your eye soreness or the wasting of time.

I choose not to become so emo.

I choose not to remember all the old bad stuff.

I choose to forgive the FAKER, and her girlfriend who recently always boom me in her blog.

I choose to forgive those who pretend to be someone else or in another word, hypocrite.

I choose not to upset or blame myself after getting my midterm exam result.

I choose TRY TO DO HOMEWORK.

The main reason for me to have those decision, is God.

You may not believe in God. You believe that by doing a lot of additional mathematics would help you in your exam. You believe that by studying would give you assurance in your life and happiness.

But when you achieve something or target, you wish to achieve more. Human is never satisfied although when we are perfectly created. And at the end, you are not happy, you would never own happiness.

I remember when I was still living in my shop when I was ermm...maybe 5 years old or older than that. One night, I was awake and I can't sleep in the middle night. I was afraid, because if I opened my eyes, I might see ghosts. So I called my mum. She was awake and she prayed for me.

Just after she started her prayer, I was asleep at once. That's so cool.

When I was form two, I was seriously sick. I think I sick for almost one week, the next day mum is going to brng me to hospital.

That afternoon, I was lying on the bed. Daddy came in, he told me he was going to pray for me. I was having fever that time. Just after his prayer, just after the "Amen" word uttered from my mouth, I felt the sickness was taken away, and I was healed.

In the early month of June, I lost my wallet. With my id card and money inside, fyi, if you report lose of your id card and remake it, you have to pay RM120. I prayed to God just after I knew my wallet was lost and I couldn't find it in school as well as places where I went. I felt peace in my heart, I knew I am going to get my wallet back. I knew it, I didn't even feel nervous or screaming desperately for my wallet.

But after one week, there's no news about my wallet. So I went to police station to make a report, JUST WHEN MY DAD AND I WERE GOING TO JPN TO DO IC( where I would kena saman for 120 bucks), sth happened. Dad's hp rang.

Mum: Eh where are you?

Dad: I am in the bank. Going to Jpn. Why?

Mum: Someone found Ting Hui's wallet and he brought it to the shop.

*This is the weird part. The ID card's address is my house address, then why would this guy( i think is a teacher) brought it to my shop? He knows me? And he says it's found in school's field. Apparently, the money is gone but other things remained.

God is the creator of this whole world, He creates you and me. His only Son, Jesus sacrifices His body at the cross. God creates us, and forgive us. So can you imagine? The creator of everything, forgive us when we always sin and break His heart.

So when the creator of everything forgive us, why not we forgive other people?

Recently many problems happened and many people try to have a fight with me. For example the FAKER's gf la and so on.

Forgive and forget.

Bye~

Bore

2010-06-12T00:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, ppl just don't appreciate friends. They dump friends when they are not useful anymore or stick with them when they are giving you benefits.

I think I'm becoming this kind of ppl. Not the one getting dumped, but the one who dumps. But I'm more like, err, a bore. Do you get it?

When they asked me out, I'll think of many reasons just want to stay at home. When chatting with friends, seriously, I think I've been ignoring most of them these few weeks. So now I rather just don't sign in MSN or making myself offline in Facebook.

Why? Why am I doing this?

I don't know. I simply don't feel excited anymore when they are organizing hang-out in weekends.

I finished reading ps I love you which I bought two years ago. Holly, who became a bore after turning into a lonely widow, recognized herself as a bitch. She thought she's being selfish, and turning the atmosphere down during the hen night of her best friend. (ps: hen night - a party held by woman who is about to married.) She's being jealous and hating seeing her friends went on in their lives without her.

So Holly has her problem, because losing her love ones.

What about mine? What's the stupid problem that I've been oblivious with it? I don't know, maybe I'm just like the typical teenager, emoing around. LOL.

Ignorance is your new best friend

2010-06-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry that I've been ignoring you recently, I mean my blog.

It's not that I'm lazy to write or what, I just can't think of any thing to write.

Now too.

Okay, let say about the trip.

Yesterday went to KL along with school trip organised my Miss Ho. It was okay only, because I found out all the time I was sticking onto the bus seat, which made me sick.

My leg is aching like it didn't happen in my life before.

But I bought something, at least.

See, I just ran out of things to say. I guess I had already talked my entire life in my blog, LOL.

My friend told me she is more into things like topic about "life'', or something connected to our life. Erm, lol.

Bye.

Lindan 转行去跳舞啦

2010-05-15T16:45:00.005+08:00

昨天的羽球比赛看得让人心碎，亏我还因为要看这场比赛而skip掉补习。

只能说，中国的羽球队真的是太强了，马来西亚的Zaman Kegemilangan已经过去。

林丹到最后还跳舞嘞，真是不要脸。让我们看看以前林丹被打败后是怎样摆黑脸.

连shakehand 都直接skip掉。再看领奖的时候，他的pattern。

而这次还跳了机械舞~ 他的球技的确很厉害，他的速度和准确性让我叹为观止。我甚至还希望中国队能进决赛和印尼一决高下，那将会很精彩。

看到这一幕时，差点让我喷饭。

dato 李宗伟也只能失落地离开。。。

Hey, happy birthday!

2010-05-11T16:27:00.004+08:00

16 years ago, I was born, at afternoon 12pm.

My mum told me since I was the fifth child, so there wasn't any pain but only felt sore on her waist. She even finished her housework before going to hospital, wth??

She described the process when giving birth - "Oh, it's like pangsai."

LOL... Sorry guys, my mum always appears to be like this la.

So, in short, today is my birthday. Somehow, I never really celebrate my birthday with friends, perhaps never.

But there's gonna to be different this year, tomorrow goin to celebrate, so wait my photo la.

I received LOT LOT of celebration wishes ( mostly from facebook).

And among all, there's one which I think is pretty cool.

"Number 16 is just another number out of infinity. But if you see it in term of age, it's actually 16 years or 5840 days / 140160 hours / 8409600 minutes / 504576000 seconds. Just want you to show you that every second counts and it is still counting since the maximum of numbers is undefined. I know, during somewhere around 409968000 second, we argued so much about nonsense but hey, we are still good and close siblings, aren't we? I truly hope that starting from 504576001 second, you will appreciate every second even more and will live to the fullest! May God bless you! Oh ya, Happy Birthday sister! :) "

-Ayden-

Handphone is an evil thing

2010-05-09T17:52:00.008+08:00

Missing In Action

2010-05-05T20:10:00.002+08:00

Uh...

One month plus, NO INTERNET. Just imagine it, no facebook, NTG!!

~!@#$$&%*((!!!!!!

Not quite many things happened during the boring month. Oh yea, I just came back from hatnai. I put alot of hope to meet those ren yao (transsexual person), but i just met one, cheh. And MC Donald at Thailand isn't halal, hahahaha.

That's all. LOL.

不平凡的平凡

2010-03-30T16:39:00.006+08:00

老早就起来、去学校、上课、放学、补习、做功课、睡觉，然后第二天又重复一样的事情。多么平凡的日子，却显得有点那么不平凡。

为什么？

因为是出奇得平凡，平凡得惊人。

却在这平凡的一天，上了一位平凡的华文老师的课。她，真得很平凡。一直以来所说的东西以及所教的东西都那么平凡。不过，却在这平凡的一天，她让我们读了一篇不平凡的文章。

我深深爱上了这文章。

从来都没发现这作者的存在，也不知道我的华文课本里有着这么不平凡的文章。就在这平凡的一天，我找到了。

蒲公英作者：冰心

一月十九晨是雪后浓阴的天，我早起游山，忽然在积雪中，看见了七八朵大开的蒲公英。我俯身摘下，握在手里一一真不知这平凡的草花，竞与梅、菊一样地耐寒。我回到楼上，用条黄丝带将这几朵级将起来，编成王冠的形式。人家问我做什么?我说："我要为我的女王加冕"，说着，就随便地给一个女孩子戴上了。

在大家的欢笑声中，我只无言地卧在床上一一我不是为女王加冕，竟是为蒲公英加冕了。蒲公英虽是我最认识的一种草花，但从来是被人轻忽，从来是不上美人头的，今日因着情不可却，我竞让她在美人头上照耀了几钟。

蒲公英是黄色叠瓣的花，着菊花的神意，但我也不爱她。我对于花卉是普遍地爱怜，虽有时不免喜爱玫瑰的浓郁和桂花的清远，而在我忧来无方的时候，玫瑰和桂花也一样成为粪土;在我心情怡悦的一刹那，高贵清雅的菊花也不能和手中的蒲公英争夺位置。

世上的一切事物，只是百千万面大大小小的镜子，重重对照，反射又反射;于是世上有了很多虹影般的璀嗓辉煌的光彩。没有蒲公英，显不出雏菊;没有平凡，显不出超绝。而且不能因为大家都爱雏菊，世上便消灭了蒲公英;不能因为大家都敬礼超人，世上便消灭了庸碌。即使这一切都能因着世人的爱憎而生灭，只恐满谷都是菊花和超人的时候，菊花的价值反不如蒲公英，超人的价值反不及庸碌了。

所以世上一物有一物的长处，一人有一人的价值。我不能偏爱，也不肯偏憎，悟到万物相衬托的道理，我只愿我心如水，处处齐平。我愿菊花在我眼中，消失了她的富丽堂皇，蒲公英也解除了她的局促羞涩。博爱的极端，翻成淡漠;但这种普遍淡漠的心，除了博爱的小朋友，有谁知道?

“没有平凡，显不出超绝。”
平凡衬托超绝。没有了平凡的存在，超绝也只不过是平凡的超绝。没有了丑陋，就没有这个必要要分别出美丽。平凡的存在————是多么的不平凡。

来个橘子，再用九把刀来切！

2010-03-28T16:22:00.003+08:00

书展，对我来说可算是生命的一部分。Haiyo，知道讲到很夸张啦。

可是今年，在我生命中的一部分的书展，却显得有点闷。也都没什么新书咯。

不过今年是我买得最多的一年-----废！！我只买了一本英文书（去年和前年和大前年和大大前年都是买英文书居多），然后买了四本华文小说。

这四本华文书里，就有三本是来自橘子所写的爱情小说。

爱情小说。

橘子的写作style，都显得很cool，是冷漠带一点寂寞再带一点痛苦的那一种。从来都不买华文爱情小说的我，一口气买了三本。推荐你下次看到她的书，不用想得就去买吧，决不后悔哟！

还有一本华文书是九把刀写的杀手------嘿嘿，我是要学怎么样当个杀手然后杀掉你，怎么样，怕了吧！

听说他写的书很好看咯，所以就买了咯。

哦买尬！忘记写作文咯，掰掰。

Untitled lar..

2010-03-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

Uh, today I feel so awfully sad.

Because the exam result was much worse that I'd expected, it's like AWFULLY WORSE.

For the first time, I almost fail my exam, 13/30, that's what I got for my stupid Add Maths.

And others, uh, mou ngan tai( in cantonese)

It's super UNFAIR!!! There's a guy in my class, he hardly complete his homework, and everyday what he talks about is all about dota dota, dota, and dota.

But his results don't seem so dota-ish, he get so HIGH MARKS for every results. WHY??? His add maths got 27/30. He's like genius. And I did a lot of exercise, and my fren told me my add maths got 13.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaai??????

Ting Hui is happy, Why?

2010-03-24T14:41:00.003+08:00

Oh yea, test is over, and now I wanna give u a test.

Please answer the below question and if you do, you are very obedient! ( 5 marks)
1)Why Ting Hui is feeling extremely happy?

A) Coz the test is over.
B) She can watch drama.
C) She did well during test. (nah..)
D) None the above.

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And the answer is D. None the above.

I am happy because I've finally join COS P&W team. I'd been thinking to serve God since long time ago, and I did have a lot of chances, but because of fear, I've rejected them.

No one will understand how important and meaningful for me to serve God except Himself.

Anyway, thanks to mum for suggesting me during meeting(many years ago), because of that everyone had been persuading me! LOL!!

F to the A to the K to the E to the R to the FAKER

2010-03-19T23:24:00.004+08:00

Oh, today I wanna blog about a FAKER.

This FAKER was my best friend. And our friendship was lowered to another stage which was NORMAL FRIEND but still in contact when I found he was obsessed with pornography on the net. Erm, I told my friend about that and they said that it's NORMAL for every guys. EVERY guys, and so far I've concerned, my brothers are guys, LOL!!

So this FAKER managed to get a gf after he flirted and went after a lot of girls in the school. They seemed so sweeeet, but there always something UGLY behind the truth. He's a faker! A seriously need to be counseled FAKER. He LIED all the time. AND he desired to have affair with other girls.

The first thing--- He told my best friend that he broke up with his gf and want to have my best friend as his gf. It's like WTH lo. Btw, he dared to make this kind of lies because my best fren went to somewhere else to study, he thought she won't be COMING BACK ANYMORE.

My best friend never take this kind of courting thingy SERIOUSLY, she even brought up this topic insignificantly. But my reaction was like:" OMG!!!" I were furious, and disappointed to my this faker friend. He was once my best friend, who listened to my complaints whenever I was moody. NOT ANYMORE okay, so fake la.

SO, today, I mean just now, I asked him about this thing. Eagerly wanna know his reaction and a good explanation for this. I asked then. Do you know what he said????

------------------after I asked him------------------
FAKER: Not true la, XXX(his gf) still together with me. I'm still lovin her.

Me: So m.b.f(my best fren) was bluffing me?

FAKER: Yeah I think so. I thought m.b.f went to somewhere else to study?? ( he is asking that
becoz he wants to know whether we are still possible in contact)

Me: Yes. And we're still in contact btw.

FAKER: Err, actually I told her that was a joke la, never think that she is taking it seriously.

Me: C'mon la, how would u possible take this thing as a joke?? Even u would, it's very WRONG to do it. If I were XXX (his gf), I would be cring madly already.

Then we chatted a lot and I scolded him a lot. I felt pityful to his gf, to have such bf....==

BTW, this FAKER always find me to chat or sms. And 8 out of 10 times I ignored him. And when I asked him why so dak han find me?? Your gf leh? Then he will give me reason like:

1) She is sick.
2) She went to her ah ma house, don't have line.
3) She went to sleep.
4) She is having dinner with her parents, they don't like her sms when having dinner.
5) She is studying.
6) She is playing maple.
7) Coz I don't love her anymore. (LOL this one is just a random joke!!)

Others I forgot already. And a few days ago, he told me he went to market and bought ingredients like 500g pork, bawang, tomato sauce, noodle and so on to cook spaghetti. He cooked it himself. And another friend of mine told me he was lying!! It's like OMG rite??

This FAKER always tells others that how much he loves his gf and what he did behind her is totally different. Still have many things that he did that can prove his love to his love ones is FAKE.

YOU FAKER!!

Feel like hoppin around

2010-03-17T11:12:00.003+08:00

It's been many days I said I wanted to study, but still not even started any subject yet. Sometimes, it's real tough with things like faceBOOK and dramaS around you!

I guess I can't be like this everytime, although I always manage to finish the revision at the last minute, but it's always tougher and not systematic. I'm FORM FOUR liao leh, still cannot be determined at completing such easy task.

I always do a fine plan 3 weeks before the exam starts, like having a list of today study what subject and what subject have to be completed by what time. LOL, sounds so stupid lar, because not even one time I manage to do that, and the list is left abandoned until the exam end.

FORM FOUR already okay?!

The laziness always defeat me in no time whenever I open the book of BOREDOM. You know what book la, like Sejarah that kind. And I always stay alone at home, so want to have some cool songs played in my computer, COMPUTER AGAIN! Then when I on my computer and the playlist, then I don't know why the web browser Firefox looks so inviting.

Computer is like... so evil!! Turns into demon during exam time. Dramas are more even scary, when you start to watch one episode, it's so hard to stop. Like drugs. Conclusion, computer and dramas are drugs, I am a drug addict.

I think I get better than last time. During my form 2 and 3, I loved to skip tuition. HOHO. But now lesser, hardly skip tuition. And I even complete my homeworks leh, very WEI DA.

Okay, very sleepy now, bai bai~

Kiddo photo

2010-03-13T21:04:00.006+08:00

Guess who are these people~~

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*Update -
1) Avril Lavigne
2) Jay Chou
3) Kristen Stewart
4) Megan Fox
5) Robert Pattinson

Rapper versus Jay Chou

2010-03-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

I think most of you knew about the rapper 大支 said sth bad about Jay Chou in his lyrics... So, today I read a post which was written by Jay Chou..LOL!!

# 主题：歹势....借你的样貌去批评一个废物
# 留言时间：2010-02-18 07:51:41
# 留言内容：最近有人唱歌骂到我们兄弟....文山...你不呛他我呛了喔...好的..开始(我最看不惯对女性不尊重又欺负我兄弟的废物.. 长的像阿郎却差这麼多.. 一个是写以父之名牛仔很忙又拍过不能说的秘密和画画出书的作词人一个是不靠骂人没人知的心酸小歌手我屌不屌总比你这只大支还大支不同阶层不同地位不方便跟你计较别傻了..你以为骂骂人反讽时事就是饶舌歌啊这里又不是美国东岸..去听听外婆和稻香..饶舌要饶的有意义如果多唱我的名字可以帮到你的话你请享用因为助人为快乐之本....看到一个只能从头到尾放loop 念饶舌的人我很同情背景音乐如果你写不出来我可以教你..如果连词也不会..长的跟你像的阿郎也可以帮你这也难怪你要学beat box ...布次咖次布次咖次...对你来说比较有一技之长也可以帮你那些瞎咖朋友伴奏等你哪一天上了时代杂志或有影响力大到有人帮你做了蜡像
再来跟我拼而不是等你挂了以后才有你的腊像................. 我骂人不带脏字因为骂你所以不需押韵算你走狗运因为你是我骂过除了狗仔以外的动物喔不..........是废物)...哈哈..... 阿郎怎麼办他真的跟你有点像是发型吗....还是身型...... 还是......哈哈

生日快乐

2010-03-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

今天是她---馨媛的生日~

她是我在南华中学里我第一位认识的新朋友。

能认识到她，应该是因为李玉珍老师的缘故吧，因为是她安排我和她坐在一起。

刚开始，我觉得她好特别，因为她有很多白头发，哈哈！

同样的，在同一年，她告诉了我一个秘密---她的妈妈要申请移民去加拿大。很震撼对吧，我听到了以后，倒吸了很大一口气，然后说：“WHAT THE HECK???" Okay, 我知道很不淑女，可是是真的有下了我很大跳~

四年后，很多事情都改变了，唯一不变的事，她还得去加拿大，只不过在等待她的申请被通过，所以都一直不知道几时会去那边。也许太多事情再也都不一样了，她想要移民的感觉越来越强烈。

上个月，她告诉我：“已经被通过了，今年的七月我会离开。”同样的，我倒吸了很大一口气，然后说：“WHAT THE HECK???" 同样的，是多么的不淑女。

七月，离现在有111天。

111天后，我再也看不到她。

111天后，再也没有机会和她过生日。

111天后，再也没有人向我唱那首很奇怪的歌--feng bing bang

111天后，她就会离开。

呵，人总是要面对离别和分离。也许你会说，aiyah，还有MSN嘛，还可以看到她，而且她又不是说永远都不会回来。可是，能见到她的机会少之又少，自然就会不小心把我们遗忘掉。她在那边会认识到新朋友，会有新的开始。

无论如何，馨媛-----祝你生日永远都那么快乐，永远都会那么的幸福。
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犀利哥

2010-03-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

This guy so popular nowadays, because he is the COOLEST AND FASHIONABLE BEGGAR ever!!

HOT

2010-02-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

倒带

2010-02-20T23:08:00.016+08:00

四年前，在不同的三个地方，同时存在着令人羡慕的友情。

因为缘分，他们。。。相聚在一起。
友情，这神圣的东西，我们都放了十一分的认真和真心。只要在一起的每一刻，我们都珍惜。

在一起常做的傻事。。总是让我笑得好用力。那一刻，我真的真得很开心。
四年了，我们的友情因着一些人的离开，还有一些的误会，繁重的课业。。少了一个缺口，就没有那么的完美。不过，我相信在我们内心深处，还存有对友情的热忱。
让我们再次期待吧。。。
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Every second is ticking away , it's so short yet so long

2010-02-19T00:05:00.003+08:00

已经十六岁的我，顿时觉得时间是不是真的一直都用着同一样的拍子满满的流失走？不可能，十六年了，我却觉得我只呼吸了16天而已。

这十六年以来，太多空白和遗憾的地方，太多不值得让我挂念却让我死命地记住的事件。呵，十六年就这样被我无意间的遗忘了它的存在，一直忘记我在这世上的日子不断一天比一天的少，应该更珍惜这世界和上帝所赐给我的剧情，不是吗？

如果有一天上帝告诉你，你只剩下一天的时间活在这世上。

你是不是还会拼了命去读Sejarah？还是还在生气那位得罪你的某某人？或是因为要赶着去补习而在咒骂前面那位开车开得太慢？Life is too short for you to feel angry.

我不知道为什么我写得好像我快死了一样。

生命到了不同的阶段就会有不同的感观，不同的赞叹，不一样的感动，不一样的原因让你再一次掉泪。不知道你还记不记得最后一次痛哭的原因是为了什么？是为了那位不小心让你动心却又让你掉进冰山跌入谷底的人吗？或是被你最亲爱的遗忘了你的存在？

“世上最遥远的距离并不是生于死，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你” 来之于一首歌。haha, random..

每一天我都期待着我的生命剧情，不知道何时那位要与我一起度过下半辈子的某某男生会出现？或是几时会出车祸而快死翘翘？还是哪天我出了名？？？ Introduction，高潮，收视率超低的剧情，然后结局。我想我应该只有introduction 而已吧。。

总之，好好活下去吧，为了你所爱的人。。。 =D

Happy Chinese very suey~

2010-02-18T15:22:00.003+08:00

This year chinese new year really suey, I tell you how suey is it...

Wei Zhen had an severe accident, injured his head, went for operation TWICE, had braces on his teeth now due to the accident which caused his teeth senget. I was like OMG when heard his horrendous news, because never had a friend who met an accident such seriously.

King Mei called me at once when she knew this news, she was also very worry about him, did she sound like crying when telling me this news? LOL, i don't know la. Well, I think God has His purpose on the incident that happened on him.

Anyway, he's okay already. Just now Lucas smsed me it was like this:" Wei Zhen is FINE edi, Muahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha!!!!!"

He was the only friend of Wei Zhen's who was beside him all the time since the accident happened and during he was sent to Ipoh Hospital. So that's why he acted so EXTREMELY happy lo.

The other SUEY thing about the CNY is, why the weather is like SUPER HOT????????? You know it's like SIZZLING HOT, the hotness keep on prickle on you back. And the sweat is rushing out from you pores which made you feel very sticky between your clothes and skin. UH, even you sweat like hell when on the air-cond or sleeping during midnight. I heard on news this kind of torturing weather is going to be continued throughout the month.

==.... KILL ME.

By the way, I am supposed to study in this week, and finish the homework.

Gong Xi Fa Chai

2010-02-11T22:01:00.003+08:00

Hey guys.. New year is COMING, OMG, that means more cookies and shandy!! LOL, that's what chinese new year meant to be!

Gong Hei Fat Choi!! Gong Xi fa Chai!! More importantly, hong bao na lai!!!! LOL, that's what we said and played during our kiddo time.

But this year it seems very very very boring, don't know why... OH YEA, I know why, because I have to study at home during chinese new year....... BOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRING!!

Listening to Mcfly song now, Awwwww, so sweeeeeeeet... Do I sound very excited? LOOOL

that's all for today~~

Watch it and comment!!

2010-02-06T14:16:00.003+08:00

What kind of parent is that?? Teach and help her own daughter to beat that gal.. Should report to police!! That uncle so SHORT!! Even that victim also taller than her, and SO MUCH YOUNGER than him!! 没有文化!!!!

I love the rain!

2010-02-05T21:59:00.004+08:00

Yo! Weekend, but tomorrow I have to go to school. VERY SIAN LA WEYH! Uh, hate to go to school, have to wake up so early and you have to fight with your urge to continue sleep, ENDURING.

Today my teacher scolded my class, it's very very very uncommon and strange for her to scold people. So scary. Something happen during my absence in the school last Wednesday during the chinese calligraphy contest.

Actually the whole thing is quite a SMALL thing, but it became BIG when involved 4SD student and prefects. I think it's unfair when our small wrongs become so BIG as if it's under an electron microscope. LOL, too much of bio these days. But it doesn't mean that the small wrongs I said just now is regarding to the chinese calligraphy contest thingy.

Quite a few teachers complaint about our class attitude, uh?? Okay let me explain something to you. There are two types of student in the school. Student who is bad-attitude and who doesn't do homework at all, and the other one is student who is well-mannered and does all the homework.

BUT the first type of student actually is kind to their friends and sometimes DO offer help to teachers. The second type student who is well mannered doesn't mean that they forever is like that, never DO a wrong thing! Do you see the BALANCE there??? There is bad who actually is good, there is good who actually is not that perfectly good!

So please stop expecting us to do the best, to do the PERFECT things that you think is perfect. When you are forcing and stressing us, you are actually pushing us to the brink.

Another thing I want to explain before I get bombs from others, I write this post is not to say that teachers aren't good or they are some sort of witch, but sometimes I just fed-up when they are expecting and asking us to do the best but at the same time complaining us at the back. Backstabbing is not fun. Play front stabbing is better, at least we actually know what problem in us.

Okay this topic END.

Next, today got prefect meeting. Another clown show acted by our beloved SUN XIAN. During his poorly presented speech, I heard many bisik-bisik, IN A BAD WAY one la... But during hui xin speech, she ended with great applause. Last week, he was scolded by quite a few of BOD member because of his irresponsible.

That's all today. Tomorrow still have to go to school, ARH!!!! Hate it so much!! Oh yea, my title of this post is totally IRRELEVANT. LOOOL

Panda

2010-02-03T14:31:00.004+08:00

Yesterday watched Jay Chou - 熊猫人 pandaman. It's a drama, directed by Jay Chou.

One word for the storyline, dull and retard. Okay it's two word there... Anyway, the story isn't written by him, it's from a manga from Japan.

But the songs ROCK!!

That's all for today... BYE!

Dumbfounded

2010-01-30T19:29:00.002+08:00

January is over, again, for 15 times in my life.

Shing Yen will be going to Canada but still don't know when to go, either this year or after SPM.

Tomorrow will be going to meet Zambry, lol.

My homework still come in HEAPS.

Still cannot keep up with Mrs Tan add maths tuition speed.

Still left 5 weeks for me to prepare monthly test.

Bio teacher- Mr use-it-now didn't on his mic and he used it in the entire lesson.

Many people scolded our head prefect because of his irresponsibility and some retard things that he asked some prefects to do.

Facts that you shouldn't know

2010-01-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

Just finished Thanks For The Memories by Cecilia Ahern, it's rather boring but some parts are funny. "Taurus say a lot of bulls talk..." That made me laugh for a few minutes.LOL

Tell you all some OMG facts.

-I'm sixteen, four years later i'm twenty already. Jee Hwa twenty years old already!!! Old man!! Still like small kid....LOL

-My amazingly pretty cousin snores during sleeps. LOUDLY. OMG.

-I don't know how to wrap book and present.

-Lady Gaga is transexual. I heard it from my friend. So Lady Gaga is no longer LADY anymore, in fact, GAY GAGA.

-I saw two creatures which looked like mouse crawling under Church's piano last year during Youth Service. LOL.

-I write letters to myself EVERY YEAR. Since last two years ago.

-I know how to play piano. LOL, last time no one believes me, HMMPH.

-Rachel mixed up pleasure and pressure, and I was so bad that I laughed her for months, OMG! Okay, i know i'm bad.

-I love to stare into darkness when I can't sleep. Just trying not to think of ghost appear in front of you la...

-I like to imagine if I can go back to the past, and standing far away from my past-me try to look at me myself.

-I'm so lazy that i'm so lazy. Arh, random.

-Okay, i'm bored.

-BYE!!

Who ever say that sixteen is sweet is a liar.....

2010-01-21T20:47:00.003+08:00

I know my blog has died for a while, nah, not a while, it's a long time ago since I wrote my blog. I have no time to facebook or blogging, i have 6 tuitions! Well, blog something really interesting.

One day, when I was going to toilet, I heard an announcement that all PMR All A's-ers have to go to meeting room after recess to meet our beloved old man, PRINCIPAL. OK, well, everyone knows how weird and random is him, but we haven't acknowledge that, BUT soon!

So, after recess went to the meeting room.

He started with taking attendance. And passing around a paper to let us filled in our phone no and house no and a letter for us. Okay, in short, we have to go to a so-called GRAND function located somewhere in MANJUNG, and meet someone, who is a mamak, ZAMBRY and who is also a chief minister of Perak. Whole Manjung PMR and UPSR A's-ers will be going this function. Seriously, I don't feel like meeting this sounded-like-zombie mamak la..

Arh, whatever. Then that principal told us the details. When have to go there. Why we have to fill in the form and a slip. Why we have to go there. And we are asked to bring a notebook to write down what this mamak say in his speech and pass up the notes to Principal on Monday... I was like what the heck???? Then after that, Principal call one by one to ask WHAT HE HAD SAID JUST NOW. OMG la, all details are written in the letter already lo, why still have to waste time asking????

NVM!

Next to the form 4 hecitc life.

As what I said, it's a Form 4 HECTIC life. I am busy all the time, dealing with lots of homeoworks, figuring out what is add maths teacher teaching about.

Teachers. I super don't like my Bio teacher. He is aneneh. I mean an indian. He speaks English anehnehly. No one knows what this teacher is talking. He super extremely HATE the best class. He is pessimist to our class. Since the first week his teaching, he started a lot of BULL TALKING like criticing best class, stating that BEST CLASS student won't help him do things la, won't respond la... Whatever he said actually doesnt matter to me if he is good in teaching, but seriously he isn't good at ANYTHING except for his anehneh english.

So i went to register BIO class for god sake.

That's all, wanna go do komsas already...... =D

Velocity= Displacement/Time Taken

2010-01-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

Friday. I love Friday the most since I was in primary school, because it's weekend. Not anymore. Now, weekend, I have to do a lot a lot of homeworks and study a lot a lot of things. Form 3 to form 4 is like a BIG LEAP. Level 1 to level 10. Why would I said that??

Because:-

a) Many new subjects, which means more things to study, HARDER, more new terms...

b) More tuitions, btw, added one more tuition---Chemistry.

c) More homeworks from tuitions and school.

d) Every teachers in my class, is speeding up their teaching speed.

e) And so on....

Sometimes I'm confused. I study because I want to or I study just because I want to finish the task perfectly, OR peer pressure??? I SERIOUSLY don't know why I am studying so HARD and so BIA. Sometimes, I study or do homeworks, because my friends are doing those things. You know, seriously, I don't mean to offend them. Sometimes, they just ignore existence of those who don't take study seriously. They only will choose to sit with those who study hard, those who do homeworks. OH C'MON LA. FED UP OKAY!!! because I never will be the one who got chosen up. Well, who cares?? Urgh.... DIE DIE DIE~~~

Bye bye

2010-01-06T20:35:00.003+08:00

I'm not gonna to update my blog...until when i really start use to my schedule..
Four tuitions, canceled one already..
Everything goes smoothly so far..
Now i'm in 4SD, the best class, which is the most PRESSURE class.
Every teacher came in, keep on mentioning WE ARE THE BEST, MUST DO THE BEST.
LOL~
*A random guy msg me in MSN, well, IGNORE him!*
The third day of school reopen, already got HEAPS of homeworks!!
DIE DIE DIE~~~~
I like my physics tuition teacher the most among all those tuitions teachers and school teachers, he is LAME yet funny.
Okay, stop here, gonna do add maths homework.
Wish me luck! ><
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Oh yea, bye bey~~

busy weeks

2009-12-30T10:44:00.002+08:00

This week ---

Monday was my church 80th anniversary. Yea, everything was awesome!! Sorry, no photos for that, because I'm lazy to upload it, but you can see it in my brother facebook.

Tuesday, went to cinema watch TREASURE HUNTER. It was BORING, ILLOGICAL and EWWWW---disgusting. I already knew that before I went to watch it, but I HAVE TO WATCH EVERY JAY CHOU'S MOVIE.

Today, is going to McDonald to celebrate friend's birthday. After that go to the store to buy my school reopen things. Go to hair saloon to cut my hair. At night, go to eat steamboat with my family.. =D

Tomorrow until Sunday - Not in town. Attend to cousin's wedding. TEEHEE...=D

Next week
Monday - School and two tuitions.
Tuesday - School and two tuitions.
Wednesday - School and two tuitions.
Thursday - School and one tuition.
Friday - School and one tuition.

See the difference? OMG, when I think about next week, I'm goin to vomit already!! BYE!!
Going to close this blog for weeks.... TT

End

2009-12-24T11:22:00.000+08:00

Laugh Out Very Loud... =D

Erm, how to describe my feeling leh...

I was the second people to know I got full A's (in my class), which is shockingly shocking because when the time I stepped into the hall I expect I'll get worse result and walk home by myself. LOL, then the next minute, went to teacher there check, she said DON'T HAVE YOUR NAME HERE, find MR PANG which means it's a good news.

Yesterday I can sleep, but only for 5 hours. I keep dreaming, a lot of dreams, I think got ten dreams for one night. LOOL. I dream I got 7 A's. Haha.

Well, this year my school has 42 people got all A's. Mr Pang said we almost break the record which is 46 people. I don't think I'm going to 4SD anymore, but nevermind!

HAHAHAHAH, I break my family record. I score the most A's and score A for CHINESE. HAHA!! Papa, Mama, Ah ma, Ting Ting, Teng Siu, Jee Hor, and Jee Hwa must treat me! Or buy something to me!!!!

Ok, thx for everyone's prayer, and wishing me good luck. Everyone of you is important and make a great efforts!! THANK YOU!! Oh yea, someone, who is so important for me. His existence make me more IMPORTANT to the world------ THANK YOU MY HEAVENLY FATHER muacks~~ Love ya~

LoL, sounds like I'm receiving 金马奖~ haha

I'm not nervous- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - nah~ I am

2009-12-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

OH My God, it's like two years ago since last time I on my computer. LOL, I miss you!!! I'm TOO busy, I mean very very very very busy! Just imagine that! Morning until evening, at the church keep painting flags, then after dinner go to church again!!

Erm, just now log in my facebook, 58 notifications! Google reader, 83 blogs UPDATED!

Tomorrow, is the day I mentioned last time - The Judgment Day. To judge whether we're going to GOOD class or WORSE class. Tomorrow, we're going to reveal the secret lasting for 15 years! LOL!

----Went to read blog---

Hi, I'm back, I read some. Everyone is so worrying over tomorrow. OH NO, they are making me nervous! Why I sound so EXCITED?!!!!!

Haiyohai... I hope tomorrow faster over, then go back and sleep!

Good night~ You all will know what I got after tomorrow~~

5:17		神所惩治的人是有福的。所以你不可轻看全能者的管教。
5:18		因为他打破，又缠裹。他击伤，用手医治。